It's been a while (Patreon)

Hey y’all how are you all doing? It’s been a bit for sure. Now to start this off I hate making these things though such an absence and some abandonment requires an explanation. The short of it is another close person to me passed away. This time wasn’t as bad as the other one but this time it affected me in a way that I didn’t expect. This person was the only one that actually knew about this side of me and understood it, they were even into it. This person was also great at drawing and I constantly measured myself to their ability. They were the only one to know and understand what it means to make art, what goes into, and what it takes. Then when it came to things like bondage they were the someone that understood that it isn’t just about gooning. They were someone that I could talk to about this part of me that understood and accepted me. I relied on this person more than I realized for that and when they passed away I lost that connection to all of it. So for the past couple years I haven’t drawn or done anything creatively and I just drifted away from groups that did that fetish stuff in real life.

Now don’t get me wrong, I’m ok. I just haven’t had the motivation to do anything creative though it is a drag. Though something changed more recently, I work a job that has me surrounded by other creatives and talking with them opened my eyes to these things, especially when I look at their stuff and talk to them about it. There was a part of me that wanted to just drop it all and completely disappear but that felt sooo…. Strange so instead I think I work it over now and try and try.

So what does that mean for this place? It means that I need to rework things here. I probably set up a discord to make sure that things are more kept in the loop and more than likely a single tier. So for now expect something by the end of this week going forward.