A question for everyone (Patreon)

Hello! I'm sorry if this is weird, but I gotta get it off my chest anyway.

I'm in a dark place right now mostly because I'm still not over the loss of my pet and the fact that in a week I will have to go back to uni and meet all the horrible people there again. I have also had some bad art related experiences and now I have a very bad outlook on it and myself as an artist.

Patreon has always been a bit controversial for me to have because deep down I don't feel like I deserve 1 single patron that I have, but I try to work with it anyway.

Patreon contributes a lot to my rent so I can't just close it down because I'm uncomfy, but it does make me anxious often, and I would like to not feel that anxiety over it anymore.

What I would like to ask you, is to please click the like button if you do enjoy something that I post. I see a high patron count and a very low engagement and it sends a clear signal to me: I am not doing enough and what I am doing is wrong. I feel like I disappoint people all the time.  Comments and likes are feedback for the artist and a motivation, and for me, they're a hint to what I should make more of, to thank the people that stick with me here. :(