Thoughts (inner thoughts not necessary to read) (Patreon)

You know, I’ve been very scared lately for many things. As you know there is inflation going on and there’s also a problem with jobs and all that. Things are difficult. I understand that. This however is recent and it is something that worries me even more considering the amount of fluctuation my patreon has. It’s either very irregular or gets stagnant. I just know that in my time existing as an artist on the internet I haven’t had big pull or sometimes I dealt with some negative criticism. Tbh I always aimed to be a better artist, grow and all that.

Getting to the point, I just realized, in January next year I get to my 10 year Deviantart anniversary. Even if that may be gone, I remember when I first started, a decade of drawing and probably around 5 years of patreon and for me to have not grown in any way or form is kinda weighing on me. I am starting to get very depressing thoughts for a while now.

I’ll continue to draw with whatever drive I’ve still got left. But I did wanted to write this cause it’s always spinning in my head and better to let it out than to keep it inside and suddenly just blow up.

If you read this far thanks again for reading sorry for the gloomy mood and I hope I don’t have to write this kind of negative content in the future cause I really don’t like thinking and feeling this way and it is unfair to everyone who is here to have a good time and enjoy the content.

P.S. Expect the new Rent-a-Girlfriend gal in a couple of hours. Thanks again!

COG