We Need To Talk (Patreon)

I want to be very real with everyone here.  It is hard for me to express myself in writing so I will do my best. It has been a trying last several months for me with personal things going on in my life but of course with this Pandemic. Which we are all going through. We are all being impacted by the pandemic and the shut downs and the self isolation. It takes a toll mentally. 

I have an empathic heart which is why you see very emotional reactions from us sometimes. Because I feel what I see I feel others pain and suffering. I don't know why that is but I have always been this way since I was a child. With that being said, racism has always been a thing in my life, and it is a real thing for people of color. We don't talk about our personal problems here all that much. But with everything going on in America we decided to make a video  to express our thoughts and feelings. 

Going back to being an empath. My body feels run down and I feel emotionally rundown. Seeing the evil and the heartlessness of people these past couple weeks haven't helped.  I post this screenshot of this comment because I wanted to have an open dialogue with this Patron. I wanted them to have a space to talk freely. Because they also seem to be suffering etc. BUT after the third time of him calling me selfish and a bad person for posting a video about my personal experiences I had to block him. 

You guys can have your own thoughts and opinions on things. But I won't allow myself to be berated by people especially not on Patreon. We are humans with feelings, we are allowed to be real and honest with you all. The added cherry on top is we are also mothers who also raise children and try our best to keep them happy and healthy, and hoping they become normal functioning adults lol etc. We have our plates full.

I am blessed to have this channel and to have all of your support here, it is so appreciated. Sometimes things just get tough. And this has just been one of those years. Lots of personal growth, seeing a great therapist, healing from childhood traumas, and bad relationships, seeing the channel grow. These are all positives that I am thankful for!

Just a moment of being tired, and I think that is okay.