Just A Small Update... (and possibly a blooper? idk) (Patreon)

Hello, guys! 

Just a quick heads up, this is not my usual cute or funny blooper, it's a peek into the harsh reality of my past few weeks. Nothing too dramatic, just a sad moment and a stressed-out girl.

I've been struggling to record my audios lately since my housing conditions have been far from ideal. They're never ideal but lately it's been much harder to find a quiet hour or two to record my audios in peace. Something that would take me only a day now has to be dragged on for three, and it's been ruining all of my plans and my scheduled upload time. 

Usually, I tend to just deal with these things on my own in silence, but I've been having a hard time lately, beating myself up for not being able to upload everything I've been working on in time and drowning in shame over it basically. Even writing this now feels like some sort of a personal defeat that's evoking this immense feeling of guilt. I hate being helpless or weak, and right now I'm feeling both, to be honest with you.   

I know things will get better soon, they always do. But I just wanted to let you know that I'm working behind the scenes and not just leading you astray or being inactive with my uploads here or on YT on purpose. I always thank you for staying patient with me, and you honestly have no idea just how important it is for me to not let you all down. So once again, thank you for that, truly. 

I hope to upload something for you soon, despite everything. 

Solar