No schedule this week. Catching up (Patreon)

Hello! I do want to apologize for the lack of activity. I'll catch up this week and go as far as I can. I'm sorry for the problems caused.

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On a side note:This are just thoughts. I am trying to be more open but don't take it as a way to gain sympathy. This month is a bit weird in regards of how things have gone through. But it is hard to tell exactly where or why. I think this is the month of "failure" but it is such a difficult concept to deal with. For example, at the beginning of the month I did a couple of tests with someone as we were trying to build a partnership to work on in a long run. Sadly, it didn't work out but we both left satisfied that we tried but it wasn't going to go well in the long run. The Lynx is another example because that piece took me like two or three extra days because I had like one day full of looking for inspiration and another just in the sketch. And that is fine because I feel it is the natural process of art. Just this week I tried doing something unique and it went south, but not because it was bad. I decided to cut it off because it was too ambitious. Truth be told, sometimes I'm confused what to do with this account. LIke, I think I have since year 2 because I am always crossed between "Hey, I should do something epic!" and "No, I should draw simple stuff". You can tell because so many times I either pick up biiig projects, or promise to sketch more and I do none. Before it always felt like it was a speed and skill issue but nowadays it is mostly a time debate. My ambitions are high. So, it is difficult to tell where or what I should do. And there's also the "ghost" of no success. I've mentioned it before, but that is probably my greatest SIN as an artist. I dont let myself to fail because I care about you, about my future and about being successful. For those that have been the longest, you can tell how many times I've been like... "I think I could had done this instead". So many times I feel that I could had gone back a moment or two to rethink stuff and make a better product even if skills are the same. But it is also tough because I know perfectly fine what it is to be on the other side. And I've never felt comfortable in taking anyone for granted. Should I fail? Should I not? And what exactly is a fail? Is it a fail because it isn't looking good or because it looks dull? Can I take longer to post to aim for new heights or be true to the artist nature and draw even if something isn't the new best thing?These are thoughts btw, I am doing fine but I guess this is what every artist goes through. IdkMy job this week is to get back on track. I mentioned at the beginning of the year that I wouldn't worry about missing stuff but here I am nonetheless and I have fell again in stretching my schedule and starting to make a mess out of itIf there is any duty this week is to sit down and regain control.