Week 119! (Patreon)

Alright, so this is less of an update and more of an... apology I guess, and a thank you, and other really personal stuff.

I know I've said this before but I really wanna tell you how thankful I am for the people who have stuck around this long and helped support my life despite the status of the subject of the Patreon. You guys are the only real thing that have supported me all this time, and without you I would really be in a horrible situation.

And I also wanna say I'm really, really sorry that this has gone on so long with no real change. You guys don't deserve that, and neither did anyone who was a Patron and pledged but had to or wanted to stop. I always feel an overwhelming sense of guilt and self-hate and fear at the end of each month when I've had nothing really to show for you, but it's all I had and I needed this support to get by. 

And, well, unfortunately another big burst of fear hit earlier this week when I found out that a very, very long time hugely-donating Patron, one of the $25-tiers, had to drop out because of tight financial systems, hoping he can repledge in the future. And I don't blame him or hate him for that, that'd be ridiculous, the fact that he stuck around for so long at such a high donation rate was incredible and helped me so much and I'll always be thankful even if he can't come back. But it's definitely scary when now the Patreon makes less than $60 a week (and less on subsequent weeks due to capped pledges from some patrons). It's still... technically enough to get by, but it's incredibly scary to realize that one single thing can throw everything into chaos, and if even one more single thing happens then it's going to collapse.

So to be frank I'm really, genuinely scared and stressed at the moment because of this kind of thing, and that's why I wanted to apologize again and to say how thankful I am for those who are still here, and that this is just another huge kick in the ass to try desperately to get this dumb comic back up and running as fast as possible. I hope you all can stick around for these last couple of months of preparation and as the comic comes back, and maybe even get some more new Patrons, or old ones, can come in to help as well.

Again, thank you so much, and I'm sorry.

(I also wouldn't mind if you guys maybe "leaked" a few things about how FH is genuinely gonna come back soon to any old fans or friends or something, maybe to come help out? Or bumping your pledge up a tad for a little bit? That's such a desperate-sounding plug, but, well, I dunno :S But don't feel obligated to change anything at all, either! Cause the fact that you're here at all is so incredible and amazing and helpful to me.)