Life update, Plans, Commissions (Patreon)

This going to be long ass note.

Hey there. As much as I don't like to talk about myself here, today I want to share with you guys some thoughts. Maybe you know, or not,I've started Patreon with kind of a dream to be able to afford therapy and (if needed) medications for depression. (Thankfully I don't need them) But I have finally started my therapy sessions, every week. Thank you for making it possible.

It's not like everything is great now, because I still have.. many problems in my personal life (but that's why I'm going on a therapy sessions) But I've learned something already. I should distant myself from some people. I'm a type of person who is very empathic, who would drop everything when someone important to me need help. But some people simply do not deserve it.

I've met someone who made me fall in love with too easily. After one toxic relationship with the love of my life I was unable to fall in love with anyone for many years. This person destroyed me internally but now, this year I've met someone who totally changed it. The thing is.. he didn't deserve it. It was nice for a short period of time, and then everything changed. No communication, me being ignored all the time, insulting for literally nothing, not even trying to be understanding to my depression and overthinking, being aggresive towards me any time I'm trying to calmly discuss any problems, and I tried to talk with him, many times, I've tried with all my heart. But he is not listening. Maybe it was a ''phase'' for him. His ''love''. I think I did everything I could, but since he doesn't care about me, about us anymore, I can't take it.

And I know that even if he could read this everything, it would make everything even worse. Because that's what I'm prepared for every time I'm trying to talk with him. - agression.

And the worst thing is that it's gonna be too easy for him to just break up with me and live his normal life. He was the first man I fell in love with in my entire life. I've neved loved a guy before. And that's how it ends.

Moving on to the next topic. I'm now focusing on myself and my mental health as well as the productivity. So, I'm (so far) drawing every day, to give you new content and finish all my commissions I have to open new slots for you. I'm saving money to be able to finally get a tattoo, I was waiting for so long, it was my dream since I was 11 haha. ultimately I want to cover almost all of my body in tattoos of fav things. So those who are interested, prepare yourself because I'm gonna open commissions soon!

There is a plan to draw characters from other games and anime, (I won't tell you, it's going to be a surprise) BUT the problem is I have to REALLY like something to be able to draw it. So, it's a plan but not a promise. We will see.

That's it. If you read everything, comment ''cock and balls'' 🤙