Update and Venting (Patreon)

Hey guys, checking in. Next chapter is fairly far along but I’ve been having a rough week and not too much progress on any individual day. It could take me 1-3 days to finish next one, we’ll see. I’m getting very tired of the constant brain fog. I’ve tried keeping it on the down low so that I’m not always complaining and reiterating myself but it’s just exhausting that it’s still continuing.

The medicine is working, my mood and mind are stable now. I looked into it and found that both stopping AND starting this medicine induces brain fog so it should clear up eventually and it was just a damned if I do damned if don’t kind of thing. I assume I just have to be on it for a long time again. It’s just difficult to keep positive when it’s still going on.

I thought about starting a side project with a co-author or something since I’m still able to write outlines and lore, character and worldbuilding documents when I’m like this- I wrote a 3k word pitch document yesterday like it was nothing since I had a story in my head- it’s just actual prose that trips me up and activates my brain fog. I guess cause I have to really think about it and be super critical as opposed to stream of thought.

I have no idea how I’d even find someone for that kind of collab, though, and I’d obviously rather be working on my own shit alone. I don’t want to call it a last resort since it would probably be fun but I feel like it’s something I need to consider on the small chance I don’t recover for a very long time.

But I’m focusing on the negatives admittedly. The fact that my moods are stable and headaches are gone should be proof enough that this WILL go away after more time passes, just need to be patient.

All this to say hopefully I’ll get the next chapter to you guys pretty soon.