Where is My Mind? (Patreon)

Hi everyone,

If you will forgive and indulge me in a moment to break out of my usual marketing speak, I just wanted to pen down the thoughts behind my decision-making processes and perhaps share with everyone what my intentions are.

If you haven't been living under a rock, you'll realize that the world is changing at a breakneck pace. Given the nature of my course and how our nation is diving face first into new technologies, I cannot look away as it is a necessity to stay aware and informed in these times of uncertainty.

Because of this and various other world developments and changes to cost of living, I've been finding myself in a state of mind that's more distracted and anxious than normal. Of course, this means I have had to adapt my lifestyle and discover something that works for me as an individual, like this past year's 12-month short form comic experiment that has offered opportunities to stay productive in a consistent and sustainable manner without sacrificing my mental health further.

The past few months with the project nearing its 1-year mark, I've been contemplating on the possibility of adding a higher, $5 reward tier (obviously to tackle with rising costs and all) and deliberating on the logistics behind offering another tier. I now know for certain that offering (consistent and regular) updates for a long-format will not be feasible (for me). However, I will still continue to drop irregular updates at my own comfort along the basic $3 tier just so everyone supporting me knows what I'm up to.

That brings me to the next alternative option of offering up my stream sketches as an unlockable monthly collection. I've set up the folders, I've picked the files and I just kinda sat there thinking, "do I really want to monetize what I do for therapy?", besides the fact that these were spur of the moment scribbles of wildly varying qualities. There was just this weird feeling about it.

Maybe it's just the perfectionist in me (or the control freak), but if I was going to roll out a higher support tier, I wanted to make sure it would still be something I was proud of or excited to share. I think the current scope of things is giving me more uncertainty and things to worry about.

So, I'm not sure.

Where is my mind? You know what they say about some autistic people that when they find a music track that they really like or a playlist they can just play it over and over and over again? That's pretty much me. I need that "locked in" state of mind to work on a long format project. And that's a goal I want to return to someday, but it certainly isn't now.

So what am I locked into at this moment?

With all the dystopian developments all around and nudges life has sent my way, I've followed the signs to arrive at this hyper fixation of working on a short film (weird as it is). Almost all my previous communications modules have required assignments to be submitted as a video presentation, and I've built enough confidence in video editing at this point to commit 5 course credits to a short film module for Spring 2027 semester. I there's a lot of emotions and stuff bottling up inside that I want to express as a short film project. Whether or not it succeeds probably isn't as important as me getting all that stuff out in a productive manner. It will be live-action, and will certainly cover aspects of the furry fandom, but that's really all I can elaborate on for now until I've actually applied for the module on the 13 Oct 2026 (which is real soon). It will be off-brand to say the least for this platform, but if there's anything worth sharing, it'll be on my socials instead.

So what now?

This really was just a needlessly long update and over-explanation as to why the $5 reward tier hasn't kicked in. The TLDR is that I don't feel confident or good about it in my current state of mind or circumstances, and will focus more on delivering the same consistent level of quality and updates for the basic tier that you all have been enjoying.

Just to be clear, I'm not depressed or in dire need of help. I'm just sharing where I am mentally and where my drive currently is. While the world is doubling down on its datacenter doom spiral, my instinctual response is to tell a story in the form of a short film to address certain social issues while celebrating a certain fandom.

I think the key is to continue making meaningful things in the world in one that has lost all reason.

Stay swole and take care.

SnaresOct 2026