Self Portrait (WIP) & Some Rambling (Patreon)

This is actually strange for me, because I don't really have much of an idea of what I look like as a person. I don't pay too much attention to my face or take many pictures of myself, so this is what I THINK I look like? I'm not the biggest fan of self portraits, but lately I've been wanting to draw one since I've begun cherishing my "butch" self. my soft, sweet, butchy self. 

This is my favorite outfit. It's a suit with a hat that my girlfriend wears a lot. I also love sun flowers, so I'm going to paint those in the background as well. I want a Van Gogh kind of feeling to it, nice and warm.

Coincidentally, this is also the suit I was wearing when I was harassed on the street last week when two women couldn't figure out if I "was a boy or a girl". They yelled at me, and mocked me when I gave them an answer they didn't like. It hurt, and I definitely cried in the car for a few minutes, but at the end of the day I don't owe anybody an explanation to who I am.  I'm just me. I love a woman, I am also a woman, but I am soft and sweet and full of boyish charm and youth. I believe in good manners and being "gentlemanly" by opening the door for my girlfriend and keeping my hand on the small of her back when we walk places. Some people look at us like we're odd, because to the cis straight eye it's apparent that we are not a "traditional" couple of individuals, but we are just us. And that's not a crime.