Speak From Experience (Patreon)

My apology.. i've been working on something else recently, remaking some old pictures, i hope the time is worth of it though. u_u ||| 

There's something that i want to talk about for those artists who are also drawing for this tickle fandom as well. 

So it was like November from last year, i found an article that was talking about me on a forum, i think those who read my furaffinity journal already know what i am talking about, there were good and bad, well mostly.. i don't know, quite disappointing. One of the comments really caught my attention, it was talking about my art style. 

(His art has gone to complete and utter shit the past 3 or so years. I've never seen an artist go from bad, to good, to one of the best, to atrocious in such a short space of time. It's tragic.)

(and this is from 2017. Note the actual background, the shading, composition in general. Also notice how he doesn't draw faces really weirdly? Seriously, why does he draw eyes so close together in his new art?)

Am i mad about this ? hell yeah, of course i'm mad about it, but i think some part of the comment is somehow true.

The point i'm talking about now is, no matter how hard you do, there're always people looking for an opportunity to drag you down, to make you feel down. Just don't listen to it. You have to stay calm and see what point can literally help you improve and what is just like rubbish. 

I think i work hard, and being called and denied by a troll can be upset. But being upset for days, for weeks and quit won't really help you. You'll let these trolls get you. 

What can be the best way to continue ? Once a popular female singer here said something about working hard. "If 100 points is full score, you need to work hard for like 120 points to let people deduct to 100 points." 

So if you are an artist, and sadly you encounter something like i did... Simply just be strong. It's part of the reason i want to work harder and be tougher. And honestly, this troll has a point, but they... oh sadly they can't talk and act like a normal person, pathetic, something simple "Benjay, i think... can be better, you can try it. :)" would be nice. But they had to act like a person who has no social skills, pathetic... Sigh some people just can't act normal, i feel sorry for them. 

Anyway, i remade all these old pictures, not because i am hurt, not because i feel like to change because of this comment, is because i want to. This was for myself only, so i want to give me the best. :P So don't worry about me, i'm actually tougher than you think. If i stop now, i will regret every single day for the rest of my life.

Just a little something to compare what i remade for my old pics.So... if you are my patreons, i can guarantee you that you'll always have my best version of my art. XD And.. if you want to see any work that you want to see it updated, you can please leave a comment below, but it has to be something i made for myself, i mean, not request, not commission. 

well i show these for example because i thought Charizard had the most problem how i drew faces before. So i want to fix that and then the rest of the picture. To be honest.. it was an old pic but still it took me two days to revise... 11 characters after all. Sometimes i really think i look for the troubles myself..Last but not the least, it's actually quite important. DO NOT satisfy others, just satisfy yourself. Because you never know what people want from you. Take these trolls for example... don't you ever think about satisfy them, no time for losers. 

I hope i sound reasonable, in fact, this upset me few months ago but it should be all gone now. I feel quite bad for a person who has no social skills. You will regret for being like a dickhead, but in the mean time, i don't regret at all for improving my skills and spending time to update my group tickling pic ^^. If you watch closely, eye distance is not the only thing i fixed, but also how they laugh, the muzzle, the way they open mouth wide, and body build, lighting and everything as much as possible i can come up with within my recent skills. No matter who that person is... well who cares, you chose to make yourself look as miserable as you are supposed to be. 

okay well.. i will post these remake version for another post, in case you thought the old version is better... 

Ps. This post stays here only, please do not talk about this outside, i'm not looking for a fight. Because my point is not complaining for this troll, i simply want to tell all the artists, if you encounter something bad like this, just make sure you continue... You see, i get bad comments too... but improving by action is the only solution. 

Stay strong and best wishes to artists ^^,Benjay.