Longing (Patreon)

There's a place I go in my dreams where I am in no pain

Movement is effortless and there is no shame

Love feels like the sun

Not a dangerous game

And when I wake up, I'm sad to be awake. There's a kind of loss that's so hard to explain.

I know I should be doing, being, becoming, but the panic attacks get worse when I try to get better. I feel like a stranger in the body of a robot that broke

Right now I don't see the signs

And I don't feel the hope , even though there is no reason for me to be doubting.

   there's an ache in my heart and whenever it starts starts I can only define it as longing