unsure what to do (Patreon)

If you're in my discord or follow me on Twitter, you've probably already seen my posts but I might as well make a post here as well.Right now, I really don't know what to do regarding my YouTube channel. If you missed it, YouTube deleted BOTH the moth boy & vampire ASMRs that were posted this month due to them violating their "sex and nudity" policies (both are free on patreon rn). They've given me a strike and I'm currently banned from uploading or making community posts for a week. Which I actually leave town in a few days before this ban expires, so I won't even be able to schedule anything for when I'm gone since this ban doesn't allow me to even schedule posts.It feels like whatever I post is just going to get deleted. That moth boy audio was so incredibly SFW, it actually baffles me it was deleted. So if my most tame audios are able to get deleted, then pretty much anything I post can as well. And I think if one or two more videos get deleted from my channel during this time, they'll terminate my channel as they give out strikes every time they delete your videos. So my channel is pretty much at risk of being deleted which brings me to a difficult debate: I'm considering if it's better for me to quit YouTube now on my own terms. If I stop posting now, I shouldn't get any more strikes and the channel will be able to stay up. I think of everyone who tells me they rely on my videos for comfort and relaxation, so those people would be able to continue watching them on YouTube. That sounds better than YouTube completely wiping everything. I have no final decisions at the moment. These are just thoughts in my brain right now. I don't want to quit YouTube, but the treatment is pushing me away and is only making me scared to do anything on there. I think it's a mix of their crappy ai automation, along with hate bombing I've experienced lately that's causing this. I've noticed that ever since that IRL cosplay livestream I did, I've received so much more hate across all platforms. Maybe I'm getting spam reported and YouTube's automation is using those reports to moderate my channel. It wouldn't be the first time that's happened. I'm sorry for the not so jolly post and for not being in the best mental state. My motivation has really dropped to zero, and I've been struggling to function here at home. Regarding content as a whole, I obviously still plan to post regularly here on Patreon so don't you worry. I'm just having trouble finding the strength to work at the moment, so I apologize if I'm slow on posts.

Also just throwing this in here, but no I'm NOT allowed to post to my 2nd channel or make a new one. On YouTube, if you have a ban from a strike or if your channel gets terminated, you are not allowed to use or create secondary channels as a workaround as they will instantly terminate you if you do. Just mentioning that because a lot of you suggested doing that. Gonna end the post here. Sorry for that whole ass book I wrote. I'm going to try to get this next alien exam audio out soon 👽 I should also plan some NNN stuff too 💀 I love you all 🎹