Fears (Patreon)

I thought Chaos hit a sweet spot between romance and horror, but it's clear it didn't. The book has largely vanished from the rankings. And Earth Husbands' audiobook has earned literally 1/3 as much as Earth Fathers. Sometimes I really fear that whatever magic exists in my world is fading away. I'm scared to start Earth Lovers because I'm afraid I'll destroy the story. I'm even afraid to put up Regi's first story for the October 1 release I was planning because what if it vanishes the way Chaos did? It doesn't have sex, so maybe it's not what people want.  I don't know. Maybe some of this is because Covid is making school extra stressful so maybe I'm just maxed out on what I can handle.  I think I may take a fanfic and file off the serial numbers and play with some familar tropes until I get my fictional feet back under me.  Writing Teen Wolf really drove back the demons for a while, so maybe I should even do some fanfic.  I don't know. I feel like as I get older, I'm losing a dangerous amount of the optimism I used to possess.

Meanwhile, I'm editing the second Regi book and pretending that none of this is eating my soul alive.