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Hi! I got a few pages of doodles to share~ I have been very tired recently, and it seems that this fatigue is spilling into my drawings, hence the first page and a new pointy horn fella. I may sit down to draw them again since I have some more ideas surrounding them~ Second page has some freehand poses from imagination. Third is a piece on a disempowering rage. It's a very unusual position to draw Filip in. His rage tends to fuel him for action, even if it would be a stupid thing. So to see him consumed by the rage but being completely broken by the very same thing that caused it is very heartbreaking. I actually struggle to imagine a scenario in which he would be put down so bad by something. Filip is pretty selfish and doesn't form bonds easily, so losing a loved one is not really in the picture (especially since Patrick is a part of this picture); any injustice that would touch him fuels his rebellious nature and quickly pushes him for action with no room to grieve; any amount of self pity is quickly digested by him, never giving him enough time to process it through sadness. To be put in this position he would have to feel fully powerless at least for a brief moment. I'm looking forward to finding a scenario which could push him to be in this state. Also, last page - young beardless Patrick?

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Vee DuBois

It’s always so amazing how you can put so much emotion in your art.

Linehouse.Art

Wow. Seeing a more fragile side of Filip feels like seeing a ladies ankle in the 1800s, beautiful, rare, and worth a second look 👀

Luca Gullotta

The way your art speaks so loud is always an incredible thing to witness 🫶🏻 also, take it from someone that's chronically fatigued, don't take away time from rest 🥹

sad sun

Look at the babieeessss 🥺🥺🥺 also love the horny fella hope we'll see more of them in the future 💓

monica

I’ve always loved that you can look at your pieces and feel the emotion portrayed in them, first character is a huge example of this!! And then Filip my beloved 🥺 there’s smth about seeing a firecracker-like character like him in such a vulnerable light, his body language…the grip he has on Patrick’s shirt… 😭 I love them your honor

GoldenTar

Thank you so much 🙌 I'm looking forward to less busy time and a good time to rest 😌👌

GoldenTar

I'm so glad to hear you like both~ the tired fella will be coming back for sure 😌👌

DuncanFans

First, I am very sorry that you are feeling fatigued. It is a terrible feeling, and I hope you can charge your batteries soon! Second, I love your art so much! I am simply at a loss for words! It is so expressive and your lines are just so yummy!! Great work <3 <3

Eli

Hope you get some good rest and soon! What is Patrick and Fili's relationship status? They are together, but is it exclusive, open, something else? They have group sex with Jean & Bryan, but do they ever have sex with outsiders either together or separately? Edited to add because I didn't finish my thought before hitting send: I am an absolute sucker for strong, volatile characters breaking down. I love the angst and the pain and the sorrow that follows. I love it when strong characters act aloof and non-chalant, it's sooo much more delicious when they then fall apart, unable to keep their walls still up. The picture with P and F got my mind running hence the questions—if Fili doesn't have emotional bonds with much anyone but Patrick, what ARE his feelings for Patrick anyway, considering he's aro. Are the feelings akin to love the kind where P is convenient and safe and familiar and that's why Fili keeps him around, or does it go deeper? Does he miss Patrick beyond the sex/ his presence or also him as a person?

GoldenTar

Thank you so much! It means a lot 🙌 I've been living with fluctuating levels of fatigue for most of my life due to hypothyroidism, it seems like I'll have to do some blood tests soon and check it again. I'm really glad my drawings come off as expressive, thank you once again for your comment ✨

GoldenTar

I wouldn't call their relationship healthy. As much as Patrick is open for conversations and would initiate them, Filip is pretty closed off and repressed when it comes to experiencing his emotions. Any conversations about it usually end up disregarded on his part. Patrick does have a soft spot for him and for much of the story he doesn't search for any outside validation. Filip on the other hand is very opportunistic and if the possibility would arise he would enjoy a casual hookup. Fili does have very disregulated attachment towards Patrick. He feels safe and cared for. He likes that Patrick is attracted to him and would do a lot to satisfy him. At some point he feels very entitled to Patrick's feelings. I would reach to believe that Filip's romantic and sexual expression comes partially from trauma, and if treated with therapy he could connect with his emotions and learn how to express them. It would happen later in the timeline. Patrick not only is his safe person but also is an expression of a person Filip would be scared to become. By staying by his side he slowly accepts parts of himself he wasn't even aware existed before.