Updates / / / life and activity (Patreon)

Hi everyone--

Patreon/Art/etc.:

First, expect (god willing) some more activity here, Instagram and Twitter--or Tumblr; I've been debating on what social sites to use. But due to *vaguely motions to everything*, I'll probably be taking minimal steps and limiting where I'm on or how interactive I'll be. Hopefully, down the road, I can get back into extra ventures like streaming, blogging, networking, teaching, and more unique content for patrons. But for now, let's focus on the core of it all: art and storytelling.

I'll do my best to stay consistent on the platforms that work best for me. Once I get a bit more stable, Patreon will always have exclusives like behind-the-scenes, WIPs, early access, high res images, and more in time. Also, Patreon has recently updated its site (still looking over everything), and now it's easier for everyone to follow along, not just paying subscribers. I'll think of some exclusives for y'all--I am so thankful for the fiscal support, but cheering me on, sharing my art, and following here is also very helpful!! So consider tagging along here if you enjoy my work in whatever capacity!

And personal updates:

Well. Hmm. Life has been...not great.

I've gone through a lot of loss, stressors, health, finances, and hurt this year. It fell apart in May, and things are still in shambles. It's been an overwhelming tragedy without much break. I'm currently couch surfing, have lost many opportunities, and am stuck in unknowns. I have been so homesick, heartbroken, and scared. I can't really bring myself to go into it all.

I still have to push forward and accept what is. I can't wait for stability or never feel satisfied where I am. I have to make do with what I have, no matter what. No way but up, right? Or to try, really try.

Despite the traumatic events, I've been focusing on the good, learning from the bad, prioritizing myself, and staying busy with my art. I've learned a lot throughout this. I have pushed myself to face these fears and accept what I cannot control (which is a lot). If I can't get myself together now...then will I ever?

I've grown a lot, have been more grounded, and faced many issues that have held me back since I was young. Despite pushing myself, I'm still in survival mode and have been taking things hour by hour for the past few months. Right now, I'm still grieving and praying for solutions; I didn't want any of this to happen in the ways it did, and it's hard to grapple with the regrets and loss.

But...guess that's okay and part of the process. Maybe this is a scenario where this fallout had to happen for better things to line up. It's really been no one's fault; it's life. And I hate how numb I've become over the years to handle disasters. But I'm not the only one struggling, of course. Things could be better, but it could be much worse. I hope something can work out...it's so hard.

This, too, shall pass. One of my brothers told me that a while back, and that saying has stuck with me.

Anyway, thank you, everyone, for your continual support. Truly. I have been very reserved and solitary these days and can only rely on myself ultimately. Regardless, that's not to say others' care and help have not been lifesaving. Thank you so much. I wouldn't be here without all of you and then some.

- Susannah