Gotta Overhaul this Patreon, your opinions? (Patreon)

Okay so I have to admit, completely my fault, no excuses, I got caught in an anxiety spiral about what to do with this patreon since it's so difficult for me to fit making extra art into my schedule. The longer I stayed away, the more anxious I felt about making sure I came back with something worthwhile, the more I tried to plus up a cool thing to come back with, the longer it took. I've been hardcore down the racking, panicked anxiety hole about this whole situation, afraid to log into the account, and that's not fair to you guys so I'm sucking it up and reaching out.

Okay first order of business, you may or may not know I did a 40 page Reaper76 fancomic earlier this year and posted it on a side tumblr earlier this year. I've been doing some tweaks to it, dialogue fixes, little art tweaks on panels that were bugging me, and want to put a pdf up here of the whole thing when it's finished for $1+ backers. SO THE QUESTION FOR YOU GUYS; there's a top secret deleted explicit scene that only a couple dozen people on private discords have gotten to see, do you want that to be included? Would people like me to upload pdfs of the clean version and the explicit one with the added pages separately in case they don't want that? (I'm not sure how to go about making sure 18+ material stays in 18+ hands on Patreon so I'll have to look into this more.

Second order of business, I totally fell off the wagon with postcards, tried to focus on making really polished finished illustrations with them, again, hit the anxiety spiral of "gotta make it good!" and "Oh no it's taking too long" and cowered and hid. If I owe you postcards message me with your current address and I'll start untangling this.

FINAL ORDER OF BUSINESS: I started on a Dream Daddy fan comic that I don't want to post on tumblr until it's finished, I'll stick pages here for $1+ backers so you guys can read it as it's being made

THANKS EVERYONE FOR YOUR PATIENCE! I feel like a mess, I'm still sorting my life out from everything that got backed up with the broken arm last year and the huge wrench it threw into the machine of my life, I appreciate you guys for sticking with me