Missing the Mark? (Patreon)
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Hey again, guys. I guess it's not surprising that like a lot of artists, I'm a bit self-conscious and always worried about doing a good job and satisfying what others want to see. I've been fortunate to not have been told "Your stuff sucks!" or the like -- goodness knows I tell myself that enough from time to time.
But I see other artists out there who are succeeding and I wonder if I'm missing the mark on what people want to see in my own works. I know I've stuck with a rather old and somewhat-discontinued rendering engine; I've been slow to adopt the hyperrealistic Iray and that's probably hurt me as a creator and being compared to my peers. It's made me have to make very exhausting stories in an effort to keep up, so to speak, to offer things that I don't think others do -- at least in a monthly fashion. Doing such lengthy stories is a very big drain on me, but I do it because I do love seeing them come together and want to provide something worthy of your support.
When I say I'm grateful to you guys for your support, it isn't just words. I really mean it. But I also want to do right by you and make things you'll enjoy and want to stay here for (coronavirus worries excluded.)
Is there anything that you've been wanting me to do or improve upon? When I was watching the poll recently, I was wishing that I had the time and energy to do both stories together, so nobody would be disappointed. It's impossible, though, and that just adds to my worries of possible failure as a creator.
I hate to think of such things and hope that you don't mind me writing my fears out here in the open. It's something that's been on my shoulders for a long, long time now.
I really should be in bed now, but I knew I wouldn't be able to sleep unless I typed this out and posted it. Thank you for reading this and even more for offering your insights about what I might be doing wrong.
Thank you again,-Lucky