"Just Checking In" (Patreon)

And the check ins quickly stop

After all it’s been three years since my soul was ripped out

Two years since my heart stopped beating

One month since I forgot how to breathe

They assume I’m good at it by now

I’m not and never will be

Because you’re all still gone

The next sun rises and everyone moves on

I’m still on the floor where you slept

I can’t wash the clothes you laid on

I can’t vacuum the carpet that held you

The water evaporated

Gnats circling the bowls

Dust settled on the bed but I can still pretend

Contact in my phone as if you’ll ever call

Your face is seared behind my eyelids

Your limp body etched between my bones

Our last conversation my echo

I close my eyes and see your life

A movie starring us that makes no sense now

You’re a thread woven in every fabric of me

Now tugged and unraveling

So no one checks in anymore

But I’m still here

I died with you that day

But only you stopped breathing