UPDATE // an explanation (Patreon)

Good evening my handsome gorgeous people. ❤ ❤

Please forgive my absence, I realize it has been 5 days since my last update. First, I want to thank you all for staying here, for supporting my small Patreon and my work despite being incredibly slow. I know I have some things to explain. I am not so fond of explaining details because the last thing I want is to cause pity or negative feelings, however after discussing with a friend of mine, she encouraged me to be honest, after all, life is life.

I have been dealing with tons of personal and family issues, my mental health being one of those.

On my mental status I had a hard breakdown, I don't know what happened in my last therapy session but due to it, I have had a hard time fighting against an onslaught of sudden suicidal thoughts.

According to this neurologist, I have ADHD, some autism and small brain damage that may or may not affect my daily life but I still have to take medicine the rest of my life to control it.

I am going to change to another neurologist due to the last session and because lately I just feel like is not working anymore.

My family household consists of my mom, sister, and I. I get to check in on my grandma from time to time, who lives with an aunt but she’s not living with us currently.

A cousin used to live with us but due to dealing with the wrong kinds of people we had to run, took whatever we could and had to start over; it hasn’t been easy. Because of this my family has financial issues, as I’m sure you know starting over isn’t easy in this world.

I help my family with their finances including the monthly rent. That's the reason why I keep on opening commissions, despite having a queue, and because of this process, dealing with a burn out that has being with me for years. Sometimes I can force myself to overwork, but the sad part is that eventually I cannot work for two or three days due to that and I reach my limit. I’m stuck in an endless loop.

Thank you all for your patience while I deal with all these issues, your support truly keeps me going.