Disgusting... (Page 2 & 3 WIP) (Patreon)

Continuing from the last page, I think Stolas getting subjected to a lot of sexual advances from Blitz is making him realise a few things. But again, I don't think he's taking it well. The more he becomes aware of his past actions, I think he'd want to punish himself more for it... and that'll all come out in his sexual proclivities 👀

I love this shit! I love seeing how emotional turmoil manifests in the bedroom! I know there's a hot button topic around whether Stolas is using BDSM as a means to "self-harm", and the third page does lean into that portrayal in a way, but... it's complicated, right? There's no black-or-white answer, but I came to the conclusion that he is and he isn't. It can't be denied that his self-loathing is manifesting in this extreme need to punish himself (the Dirty Bird lyrics make that clear), while at the same time he is enjoying this freedom to explore and enjoy himself! He takes pleasure in being humiliated and demeaned. So there seems to be an amalgamation of needing to condemn himself while chasing euphoria. Rest assured, while he's wrestling with these emotions in a safe and controlled environment, he's able to confront these feelings and process them.

Although we're at an incredibly sad moment for Stolas, I do have hope that this experience will allow him to understand himself better. It only depends on how he uses BDSM as a tool to navigate his self-discovery phrase. Luckily it seems that his doms are very good at their jobs~

What do you guys think? I know it's been an emotionally rocky time with LOTS of heated discussions, but on my wee Patreon I'm open to lots of perspectives and interpretations 🤗 and my comics are just my thoughts (and my own processing/understanding)!