Diary of a Demon Dog #20 (Patreon)

Employment is such a weird thing. You spend most of your waking hours making far more value than you are paid in order to survive in a harsh world created by the very people profiting from your pain. If you’re unemployed, sometimes you just die. Thankfully during my unemployed time, I didn’t die. I’ve spent most of the year searching for a job. Over 200 applications sent and only 2 interviews and 1 job offer. Bullshit. I started my job a month ago and it has taken every drop of energy I’ve had to not lose my fucking mind while working there. I’ve found the pace somewhat while also going back to school online, the second circle of hell in my life. Thankfully I’m starting off slow with one class but I’ll need to pick up the pace if I want to finish in any reasonable amount of time. Also gotta get those government loans while we still have a government. As one could imagine, creative energy has been all but completely lost during this hurricane of bullshit. Regardless, I am still determined to put out what I can when I can now that I have found some semblance of a groove. I pray no old men throw it off or else they are sooooo going out of the window.

The other part of all this is that I have been so desperate to find work and make money that I have been trying to do things the quick and dirty way. Odd jobs and basically gambling what little I had on the stock market. This is not the way. In the long run, I think I only set myself back even further. Fucking tortoise and the hare. Slow and steady wins the race. It’s all the small changes. Getting up early to take the bus to work and save money. Eating at home and getting the occasional frozen meal. Setting aside a small amount in actual stable assets like bonds and index funds. Dad is a wise sage that deserves so much better than what he got. I hope to make him proud with all the work I’m doing. To all you reading this, I hope to make you happy with all the weird stuff I’ll be drawing and writing. I’m not giving up and I doubt I ever will. Sometimes I just need some rest.