Diary of a Demon Dog #32 (Patreon)

For a long time, a lot of things in my life lost their luster. I wasn't eating right, sleeping well or doing anything regularly that would often bring me joy. I feel so much pressure to try and get new game updates out, work on a comic and story all together. Sadly we live in a society that also demands a ludicrous amount of money out of all of us. It makes me feel like sometimes I am wasting time with my art pursuits when I should be out there grinding for every penny I can get my hands on. This is awful and really counter productive. I straight up missed a chunk of my usual therapy to work a terrible job for a few hours because my mom pressured me to do so. This sucks. I'm not made for that kind of work. This is what I feel like I was made to do but it still doesn't feel right all the time. I really think what I need to do more than anything is continue writing out things for the SilveVale novel. Sure it doesn't get as many views and readings as the comic or the game but both the comic and the game require so much attention and work that I often feel like I don't know if I should be juggling all of this at once. Do people read the novel at all? I know some have kept up with it but I wonder what I can do to have more eyes on it. I also feel like I should just animate some stuff. I feel like I'm being pulled in all directions and they all feel quite valid. I know if I want to make money, the game is usually the way but I don't want to work on it just to make that money. I want to do it when it feels good and right to do so. Maybe I should just update the game with what images I have and move on. It's been over a year and you all deserve an update on that project. I'm getting there but the daily stressors and lack of motivation keep pecking away at me.

Fuck it. The game is where it is right now and I want you all to see some of it. I'm tired of waiting. Yeah, it's not done and still requires a tooooooooooooooooooooooon of work but why not let you all see some of what is coming together for it? I'm also going to start sketching more of the comic and releasing that when I have the time too. I just feel so stuck not showing off more of all of this work this year has required. Part of me feels like it is not enough for how long you all have been waiting for all of these images and animations. I haven't even gotten all of the ones I have made into the game just yet but I feel so fucking tired. I think I need more interaction from you all on it. I also feel like you all might be disappointed when you look at it. So many thoughts buzzing that I just need to say it again. Fuck it. Release what is currently here and forget everything else. Let me know what you all think!