Breathing out (Patreon)

I want to send the biggest thanks to you guys. Last months has been absolutely crazy and even life-changing for me. It's not until now that I've properly come to the point where I know I need to slow down to process everything, let go of the things out of my control and most of all not stretch myself as thin as I've been doing. To be completely frank, I am a person who needs to be careful not to burn out. I have so many things I want to do, so many dreams, so much I want to give - and up until now I refused to admit that I had a period again where I was on the edge. I felt my body starting to cave in and I realised it was telling me to STOP. That's where I knew I wanted to do some soul searching, get back to my yoga and meditation practice and work on balance. You absolutely 100% don't have to worry. I'm aware of it now and I'm taking several active steps to take care of myself. I'm in control and I feel strong. What amazes me is that it's not until now I've truly realised how important it is for me to make sure I take care of myself - not only for myself - but for our community. 

I see clearly how mindful I need to be balancing myself to ultimately be able do what I love the most and keep this community as non-toxic and loving as it is. My dream is, as you might know by now, to bring happiness, comfort and support to as many people as possible while doing something I'm passionate about. But to be able to do that I need to make sure I always act out of love for myself too. Don't get me wrong, I'm just as much of a human as you are and therefore I will have tough times - but what's important is that I make sure I take care of myself when I am struggling instead of trying to push even harder. I push because I want to hold on to my dream when I in fact actually need to release at times to be able to. As in everything, it's always about balance. Push and release. Breathing in, breathing out. 

I will therefore make some realistic changes to my patreon site and the teir rewards. I appreciate the support you guys give me more than I can ever express. You are a huuge part of making it possible for me to do what I love the most. And your patience when I haven't been able to deliver means the world to me. So know that I am so so so thankful and happy to have such a supportive patron family. If you however are ever struggling yourself financially I never want you to feel obligated to support me here and if you feel like the rewards doesn't meet your expectations then that's okay too. Ultimately like I said - I want YOU to be happy too. So always follow your heart and act from a place of love and freedom. 

You will still have some awesome rewards and I have some fun ones in store for when Creative Saturday starts. The tiers will be more focused on streaming though as that is my main focus right now. I will by the end of this week update the tiers and do a post letting you know what changes I've made. If you have any thoughts, suggestions or ideas for the rewards you'd like to see- now's definitely the time. :) I want to make this place as good as possible for you so I'd love to hear your thoughts.

I'll also always act out of mindfulness for what, when and how I'm streaming, as well as how I spend my time on social medias.

By deciding to be very mindful about balancing myself first I finally feel like I am breathing again. I have been breathing in for several months now, holding my breath. But now, I finally am breathing out. 

Thanks guys. Thanks for being part of this community and always being so supporitve, even when I stagger. If there's anything I want you to take out of this post then it's this: I believe we're all connected. What we do affect each other. That's why I always want to make sure I take good care of myself. Because I want you to as well. I want you to be happy, kind to yourself and balanced.

Like the idiom I often come back to: "många bäckar små blir en stor å" - little creeks adds up to a big river. If I'm happy, I can naturally help you be happy and you'll make someone next to you feel better. Like that we can make a big difference in this world. Ohohohoh and if I can make this world filled with more love, then I'm happy.

Talk to you soon guys. I love you. <3