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we're seperating (Patreon)

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2021-04-09 22:49:59
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2026-10
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Hi you wonderful beans! Did I ever tell you that I think you're great?

My place is currently filled with moving (read: banana) boxes. Only 8 days left til I leave this place forever eek! This will mean a brand new start, and a home without mold.

I'm meaning to tell the rest of our community something, but I appreciate to be able to share things with you first. 

If you've been in my streams lately you've heard me mention how scary this move feels. It has little to do with changing locations. The truth is that my partner and I will be separating. This is difficult not only because he's my best friend but because he is a soulmate and my first real true love. 

I believe the song I shared with you two weeks ago was expressing the bittersweet emotions I hold for the idea of the future. The hopelessness and the hope co-existing, the pain and the relief. 

I'm likely to write many more songs about this. I might not always directly say what it's about when it hurts too much, so now you'll just know.

I don't want to go into details about the whys, but trust that we both know it's the right decision. We love each other and we intend to stay friends, but for now we'll move apart and focus on our own independence and health.

He leaves the 16th, I'm moving the 17th.

Now you may wonder why I shared a picture of blueberry muffins? Simply because I feel like those unbaked pastries haha. Unsure how I'll turn out after this, but optimistic because there's a lot of good ingredients in there. 

Couldn't possibly begin to express how grateful I am to have this community in this transition. <3

Thank you for being who you are, couldn't ask for more.

~Joy

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What a special transition, a new position and a new mission! Parting ways isn’t easy, but i know you’re strong. And even if it doesn’t always look like it, the sun will rise again. Follow your intuition, here ends the tuition of the magician.

PenniePepper

I sensed this but it's not something I wanted to ask about or poke at. Thank you so much for your trust in sharing it with us. One of the many things I respect about you is your wisdom to know you have to embrace change, and despite how difficult it is, or how anxious or reluctant you are, that you consistently have the inner strength to go towards where you feel you need to go. As has often been said, bravery is about knowing what you're facing but moving forward anyway because you know it's best. For me, I have faith in you and what you choose to do, and that you will come through this transition stronger and happier. Another thing I love is your blueberry muffins metaphor, because that is so apt. Both beautiful and delicious. Which are two things I strive to be as well, hehehe.

SirPoxy

I had a feeling there was something going on beneath the surface lately. I thought this might be the case, but I'm not one to make assumptions. I rarely talk to you outside of stream, but I read people very well. I tend to notice very minor changes even when people try to hide them. I didn't sense anything truly negative. Just different. Sometimes you have to do what you feel is right. You can't let those chemicals in that lump of tissue 3 feet above your butt control what you do! The brain isn't always right. You gotta follow your heart sometimes. If you feel this is right, then go with it! It's interesting that you posted a picture of unbaked blueberry muffins. One of my favorite muffin recipes is for no-bake blueberry muffins! Who says they need to be baked? Nobody! Sometimes they are perfect the way they are! Know this though, Joy: You have a wonderful community full of people if you ever need to talk about anything. Use us as your pillar of strength as you make this transition. I know it's scary, and you're very nervous, but we have hands you can hold on to & shoulders you can lean on. They may not be physical, but that doesn't mean they don't exist. I only speak for myself here, but my DM's are always open if you ever want someone to talk to. Don't worry about bothering me. Just message away if you feel the need.

JoyAileen

Had a feeling that you did too, thank you for being someone I can trust. 🧡 That is incredibly beautifully expressed by you. Thank you so much for saying that. To say your message brought me comfort would be a great understatement. I'm confident I'll come back to this message when that fear gets overwhelming. Thank you for believing in me and for the incredible support you show me. Means the world to me. 🧡 Ahhh and i'm so happy you liked the blueberry muffin hehe. Beautiful and delicious, that you already are heheh, i'm confident Julie agrees

JoyAileen

Thank you so incredibly much for your message Poxy, it brought me an immense amount of comfort. I thought you might have picked up on it, I actually even considered reaching out to you more than once as I know you hold an incredible amount of wisdom and understanding of and for people. So I really appreciate you saying that too. And you're so right, it's been such a hard lesson to realise that love is not always enough, especially painful because it can mean so much to us. AHHH I love what you said about the no-bake blueberry muffins 😭 that is so true, thank you dearly 🧡 Thank you again for your support, there really aren't enough words for me to express how much it means to me. It's a beacon to know I have our community in this transition. I've always been private to a fault about what I struggle with, but it sure makes the burdens a bit less heavy to carry when you don't have to hold them all yourself. Truly and deeply appreciate those hands to hold and shoulders to lean on that I have today. I'll try my hardest to not be too stubborn in doing it all myself. Thank you for being so good to me. 🧡

JoyAileen

thank you so much for the hugs Tina 🧡 many hugs back 🧡 and I'm so happy to have you in our patron family. hope you're doing well!

JoyAileen

Thank you so much T__T you sure are magical. 🧡 Thank you so dearly for the support and comfort, really means so much to me, and truly helps me.

SirPoxy

I've been told I have old soul and that allows me to give good advice (I dunno if that's true or not), but I know for a fact I'm terrible at taking advice. I think that's the way it just goes. It wouldn't be fair to give good advice & also be to take good advice. I suppose it's a universal compromise, lol. I personally wouldn't say love isn't enough. All we need is love. However, love is blind. While it's blinds us we forget that there are many different kinds of love & they are easily mistaken & confused. It's the counterbalance to hate. Hate is often very clear. We almost always know why we hate, but love is much more complex & quite often confusing. One is the Yin & the other is the Yang. It's the balance. Don't take it as a "Hard Lesson", just a Life Lesson. I know all too well about being private to a fault. You might not think that because I'm told I seem pretty open, but I'm anything but. Next time you consider reaching out to me, just do it! :D I don't bite! I may not be around, but I always reply when I can. My DMs are always open to you. No need to thank me, Joy, but you are quite welcome! If you truly wanna thank me, just keep being you! That's all I ever ask! <3