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I tried to continue writing the song from last week, but nothing was good enough. It is always unfortunate when I am interrupted or can't for whatever reason continue a song when I have started, because getting into the exact same state of mind is so hard. Feeling what I felt then, so that the song has the genuine expression I want, in its continuation, sometimes seems impossible.

In the end, I decided to let it rest for a bit, and instead just play what I felt. 

This is what I felt. I won't go into details because it's darker than I want to get here, but I do want to share it in the way that is closest to my heart, through music.

A lot of things are moving inside of me right now, I know it is a weird time for many. Thank you for letting me share little pieces from my heart with you.

lots of love,~ Joy