hold on (Patreon)

hello, i am nervous! 

In my last post I shared that I wrote a new song called "Hold On", and how it was very important to me. 

Some of you know I usually record the process while I am writing, in case I forget (because my god the frustration when you loved the melody but can't remember what the heck you did haha).

This is a recording of the first verse of Hold On, while I was writing, before I had even written the chorus. It was, in a way, an exposure for me to write it, because I sang what I am scared to talk about. 

So, please, be gentle when you hold space for this one. It's a very vulnerable piece for me. 🧡

I want to share the complete song with you in the future, I want to record it properly. It's ready for me, I just need to brace myself to sing it again.

I do want to place a Content Warning for the lyrics, there's existentialism and the feeling of helplessness.

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"How does it matter, anything I do?Who will remember anything I say?I'm not staying, I can't make it throughWho gives a shit at the end of the day?You'll move on, eventually forgetI'll fade out to everyone I ever met"

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Thank you for being here, I love you so deeply and I am so grateful that you're you and that you're here. 🧡

Lots of love, Joy