Oh to be a cat. (Patreon)

I have to share this moment with you, even with crappy quality, my silly face, cat sand on the floor and fur all over the armchair.. the look on Kovu's face is just everything. In case you can't see it, I'm kissing Kovu's head in a repeated motion (it does admittedly look quite silly), and I think it might have reminded him of being a kitten, with his mum cleaning his head. 😭 Kovu sure knows how to dissolve stress, this was right after I came home from the theory test. 💛 It was strange leading up to the test because it turned out to be just 5 minutes from where I studied songwriting. A deeply depressed period of my life, and walking in the same area made me 1. travel back in time, and 2. realise just how damn far I've come since then. There's barely anything left of who I felt like I was then. In a way it terrified me to walk there, as if just one wrong step could cause me to tumble back to that time, to who I used to be and how I used to feel. I was so scared of everything back then.I came to a crossroad that lead me away from the school and towards the drivers test and in that moment I felt like I chose my future. I moved towards the big scary because I knew it would bring me forward, regardless of the outcome. I choose the scary, but meaningful thing, because it matters to me and that is what makes me feel alive.But then that has to be balanced with comfort (aka cat snuggles) and space to exhale. Now it's time for me to sleep, both cats are in bed with me waiting for me to rest. With Kovu on my feet and Junimo purring, I feel grateful to have what I never thought I could. Talk to you soon ❤️🌷Love, Joy