Seriously though....I need to stop (Patreon)

Sorting through my actions yesterday, I now realize that all of this nonsense has to stop. I’ve always wanted this Patreon to be a stress free, fun place for everyone. This past year it has slowly devolved into my own personal venting space. Honestly, I have spent the last year + in complete anger. I was told by everyone to keep quiet, don’t pay attention to it, don’t give them what they’re looking for. That was probably good advice. For the past year, I've had two people on a constant campaign to ruin my reputation and try and break my soul. After a year of this, I finally exploded. My self control was soaked in wine and after reading Rick’s response to breaking our agreement, I exploded in a fit of pure rage. I’ve not only embarrassed myself but I let a lot of you down. I was just watching yesterday’s “revenge” livestream and talk about a moment of darkness. I’m mortified. I ask everyone to please leave Rick and Steph alone. I never meant things to get this out of hand. I wanted to hurt them and I did. There’s another side of revenge and that’s remorse. I feel terrible. When you sink to their level you learn what negativity and sickness feels like. I’ve learned my lesson. 

I promise that this Patreon won’t be my personal therapy space anymore. I have a therapist. I need to talk to her. I also promise not to bring up nonsense and get back to the basics. Livestreams, videos, posts, etc. I don’t want anymore ripples. I’ve learned my lesson. I know that Ive been all over the place today. One minute I’m happy next minute I’m regretful. I’m starting to feel more regretful than anything at the moment. I truly owe all of you an apology. 

Here’s to better things ahead. Time to open the shades and make this space fun again. Thank you all very much. 

-Dan