On Hiatus 'Til Whenever (Patreon)

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Hi all,

Hope you're okay!  Seasonal Affective Disorder + winter lockdown is no joke.

Long story short, I'm extending my hiatus until "whenever" – this Patreon remains paused & you still won't be charged.

As I've said before, I've known for years that my current way of living/working is deeply unhealthy for me.  And since the pandemic, I've lost most of my good habits & amplified my self-destructive ones.  So in Sep 2020, I started my first-ever sabbatical/hiatus to take a break from "doing educational projects".

Guess what I've done for the past 6 months?  All "educational projects".

And they're cool!  One's on General Relativity, a way to visualize intrinsic curvature without extrinsic curvature, and lets you find geodesics in spacetime by eye.  Another is original(?) computer science research where I convert the NP-Complete Circuit-SAT problem to a gradient with no false local minima, no plateaus, and at most one saddlepoint (spoiler: still not enough for P=NP. darn.)  And yet another is that "Expandable Explanations" idea I showed you a GIF of last time.

I'll be super proud to share these eventually!... but they're not what I need right now.  

I specifically wanted to take a break, and I somehow failed.  This is not a humblebrag of me being a "productive" "workaholic".  This is an admission that I don't know how to treat myself as anything other than a tool, a means to an end.  I am sick, I am self-destructive, and I need to stop.

Whoof.

Okay I feel 90% better after getting that melodrama out of my system.

Anywho, I'm extending my hiatus until "whenever".  You won't be charged, and when I do un-pause the Patreon (& thus collect pledges again) I'll give you a month's heads up.

Once again, please take care of yourselves & your loved ones.  I've meant this every time I said it, but this time I especially mean it.

♡,
~ Nicky Case