(Patreon Paused For One More Month) (Patreon)

Hi all, sorry for the radio silence.

Long story short, I've been in a 2-month-long mental health sinkhole. I don't know what compels me to tell you this, but stupidly enough, it was precipitated by an interaction with a long-time Patron who I trusted & opened up to. I'm vague-posting to not reveal private details. I voluntarily gave that person a lifetime refund (with interest), & blocked them. Still, I feel gross and mistrustful.

To be honest, the interaction wasn't that bad, and it's not really about this one person, as much as my pent-up anger over the last two years over [waves around] everything. This interaction just happened to... eerily summarize... the, frankly, moral and mental rot that's eating almost every institution and public: including my communities, possibly my friends, possibly me.

But after chatting with many friends and a rubber duck, I actually am in a healthier place now. I may write up an article (~30% confidence) about my reflections on the years 2020–2021. I figure many of you may also be dealing with pent-up anger, so, maybe this'll help.

I'll probably un-pause this Patreon (~80% confidence) –– after this 16(!) month burnout-hiatus, which was originally only planned for 6 –– on Feb 1st, 2022, Lunar New Year. Year of the Tiger. I'm gonna pretend that's my new year, my fresh start.

Stay safe during this Nth wave!

~ Nicky