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Rosie💕

the second panel 💔❤️‍🩹

emmy ౨ৎ

the little kiss on nick’s forehead is so very special to me actually

Femke

My little heart 🥺🥲

Chantelle

Hope you had a good Christmas 🩷

Faye

Nick shaking is gonna make me start crying

Leonie

oooo the ‘i’m right here’ is hitting a little too hard

Sarah Jacobs

What a heartbreaking return... 😭😭😭😭😭💔

abbie

i love the way charlie just comforts him there love is so sweet and pure

Merel

The forehead kiss 😭

ACxo

Dreams can feel so real and vivid and they’re definitely not stupid, chalries right. I’m glad Nick has someone like Charlie. Also, the way you draw their expressions always amazes me, you get every detail right and show their expressions spot on Alice. Hope you had a good holiday!

Ulises

Wish I can hug them both 🥺🥺🥺

Helen Povey

❤️🥹😭 beautiful Alice

zara ahmed !!

his anxiety manifesting into this dream is so devastating :( charlie handled it so well

Shin__

Giant teddy bear 😭

Noah

omo i cant :’((( /pos

Natalia Seguel Arenas

I miss when I had someone who really gave a shit about my nightmares 🥲

Fenna Elin

This is so cute and sad at the same time 🥲🥹

ambie

oh:(( im gonna cry they’re so sweet

Nyssa Rawther 🍉

Awww that was a very scary nightmare, Nick!! It's okay to be upset! I LOVE that Charlie gives Nick forehead kisses just as Nick gives them to him whenever their minds are being mean to them.

Jo Mary

So cute 🥰

Zointrikca Wyatt

Okay. The third panel broke me. Poor Nick. He is not dealing well. He really needs to find himself. He went from one friend group that he didn't like but went along just to get along. To Charlie's friend group. While they are much nicer he still just goes along with everything. For instance we never see him ask to go to any Rugby games or do we see him watch any sports outside of his own Rugby matches. He has however, went to museums, participated in film nights etc. It makes me wonder if he even likes Rugby or just joined because that's what his father expected of him. I think it is really starting to scare him that he doesn't know who he is now. Before Charlie he was oblivious but Charlie has now become his lifeline. Charlie is easing back on the codependency, it's scaring Nick.

Laura Humber

Kitty has been there through so much 🥹 poor Nick 😞❤️

Lex

Death freaks me out and the thought of losing someone I so deeply care about is very scary. I totally get where nick is coming from.

Ciara

Yes Nick, let it allllll out baby! 🥰❤️

Eryn Gibbons

This is so shattering and beautiful at the same time ❤️

OSM

Anxiety dreams are just the worst. Poor Nicky 😟

Charlie

I don’t even know what to say 😢

Barb

ssshhhh can be the most comforting word🥹...how how they comfort each other, i feel my heart bursting inside, they are so special🥹🫶🏻

Vantacy_1912

It’s so heartbreaking and sweet at the same time TT now I’m gonna cry myself to sleep again I guess.

Merel

Nick is shaking and clinging onto Charlie so tightly 😢 Luckily Charlie is there and real with a steady presence and comforting words ❤️

Andrew Pitonack

how sweet Charlie is 🥹. Those dreams can feel so real. I love the tenderness between them ❤️

Beam Bugge

it's fine i'm fine everything is fine 🫠🫠

Caro

oh my heart

EllieRLM

I AM NOT OKAY

Lisette

nicks walls are finally breaking down and it’s both heartbreaking but necessary for him and his relationship with Charlie….but I still want to SOB with this page

San

God I have goosebumps 🥺

Robby C

Charlie kissing Nick on the forehead is everything 💛

Victoria Panaro

I'm glad Nick is opening up little by little 🥹🥰 it's also devastating seeing him so broken 💔 but Charlie is the best boyfriend and really does his best to calm him down.

Chris

It’s heartbreaking 🥺 but one day they will decorate their Christmas tree in their new home 🤞🤞

Elena

🥺🥺🥺

Klara Dalgren

Oh this made me cry 😭 I love that they never question each other and always just support one another. It's very healing to see that kind of relationship ❤️

Liz

Oh that’s so hard. Poor Nick. I’m so glad Charlie is there to hold him and prove to Nick he’s alive and safe.

Sabrina

Oh Nicky 🥺😭

Antje Mertz

Thank god it's raining or else people would see me tearing up at the bus stop. 😄❤️‍🩹

M R

When we dream, we create, we elaborate. So while Nick is having an awful time, something is moving inside of him. He still can't put into words what is happening to him, but slightly remembering his repressed feelings of his father leaving and having a nightmare of Charlie dying while having their inevitable separation getting closer, means Nick is slowly processing what he is feeling. And who can ask for a better partner right now, who gives him his time and emotional availability to process and literally holds him while he's at his worst. (Hope this made any sense, English is not my first language😭) I love Nick and Charlie so much, this forehead kiss just gained a special place in my heart❤️‍🩹

emily

“i’m right here” WAHHHHH 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Ana Alicia Aranda De Contreras

It's so hard for you Nick, calm down, Charlie is with you and nothing will happen to him or you😭🥺💗

Jess

I really love how even though Nick is bigger, Charlie's arms just engulf him when Nick needs it! 🥹❤️

Siera

I remember my wife and I (girlfriend at the time!) used to have these types of stress dreams when we were in college about to graduate, and not knowing what came next was the scariest thing.. all you can do in the moment is hold your person close and remind yourself they are here and safe in your arms. 8 years later and the dreams have subsided as we spend each day of our lives together in our shared home, but we can remember so easily being so out of control during those big transition periods, and having that deep unsettled worry of losing what we love most dearly. These pages really hit home, and Alice you draw them so beautifully as always ❤️!

Katie H

"I'm right here" ❤️😭 I'm crying, this page is so special ❤️ I think this has to be my favourite ever page; you can see how much this hug means to them both 🥹

E

Charlie is so good at taking care of Nick. ❤️‍🩹

Katie H

The overwhelming thought of losing Charlie is really starting to affect Nick 🥹

Krystyn

A comforting hug for the ages 🥺❤️‍🩹

Claudine

It feels like Nick's emotional bucket has overflowed. All the years of pent-up emotions and stress... 😔

Elfi

The second panel is everything - the way Charlie holds Nick and kisses him on the forehead! ❤️

Chloe ♡

☹️ im gonna cry with them 💔

Bellflower

Nick is so scared of losing Charlie 😢

HLMac88

This is beautiful, the intimacy it shows. I thoroughly understand why Nick is sobbing, I’ve experienced dreams like this before and it’s awful. The worst is when it stays with you during the day. Charlie is doing the perfect thing by holding him and comforting him. Oh my boys 😢❤️‍🩹

Harri Watson

This is the build of him thinking he will loose Charlie whether through all the things Charlie went through during his recovery of ED. And the pent up fear Nick got from that and also potentially loosing him moving to uni. Added in with the sprinkle of his brother and gf breaking up over something similar. Fear eats away until you cannot handle it anymore. Poor Nick ❤️ he just needs to realise that he doesn’t have to be strong all the time.

a

my baby omg

Ashley Baird

This shattered me 😭😢❤️‍🩹

Brittney

Oh my heart 😭

Synz

☹️

Katha

Please hold him tight, Charles!

Justin S.

All that softness Nick has and shows for others, he struggles with expressing himself —that mini comic with Stephane being a jerk really helped give context to Nick’s struggle with his true self and emotions. Hold him tight, Char. 🥺

Jennifer Paddock

Oh my goodness that was such a beautiful page! Nick's despair and Charlie's understanding and comfort just pour from every line! I know when I have stress dreams (mine are more like I realize I have a final for a class I signed for but never went to) I always wake up and lay there for a moment, trying to remember if I forgot to do something. I hope Nick (tomorrow when he feels a little better) does the same thing and talks to Charlie about his feelings. Based on the N&C fight, I'm wondering if he does though... maybe he does and Charlie starts repressing? I guess I need to reread the fight 😭

Zoe

This made me sob I think Nick is so scared of losing Charlie since his ed and sh. Like in his beach speech when he says “and I’m scared if I don’t do anything then he will just…” we know he was going to say die. I think it’s always something he is fearful of 😢

arlo🧞

nick is so worried oh baby charlie is there for you it’s okay

ucfnurse

Ohhhh Nick!!!😯🙀💔❤️‍🩹🫂🥀🫖🍵🍪✌️🕊️☮️

James

Oof, right in the feels

Jo S

I love the acceptance, that they can both just be who they are- there is no pretence! It is pure love ❤️ Nick will start to heal with Charlie beside him 🫂 they are each others home 🥹🥰💗

toneelspeler

how wonderful it must be to have charlie right there with him. it's such an underappreciated part of charlie that he's such a good listener. i love his ability to keep calm and provide such stability in such a moment, it must be so soothing to have him around.

laura

not this making me cry in the middle of the beach with my family 😭

Nikki

This is so heartbreaking but I’m so pleased Charlie was there for Nick in this moment. Nick needed this hug more than anything. Hope these few panels will help certain readers realise Charlie is there for Nick as much as Nick is there for Charlie ❤️

Maddy

I'm in fact unwell. Nick is HURTING my heart 😭

RCM

Ah, my heart...it's breaking and healing at the same time. Nick's very real nightmare suggests that all the years of buried, repressed anxieties and fears are really fighting to be seen, to really be heard...like all of those past "I'm fine" moments, where TECHNICALLY Nick was "fine" (depending on your definition of fine) because he was able to convince himself he was as he was able to repress, to not think about himself, to refocus on others' needs, to HA HA, and to STOP freaking CRYING (sweet little Nick...)...these are leaking out of those deep crevices of his heart and into his dreams, as their months long efforts of making Nick feel "not quite right" haven't really worked yet...he hasn't named them yet, and he STILL apologizes HERE to Charlie for having a horrifying, disturbing dream that he couldn't control! His "sorry, this is so s-stupid" breaks me and I can only imagine how it breaks Charlie...BUT, Nick's heart woke up so much when he met Charlie, and began to grown and beat more for himself than ever, and so now there is some room for these buried traumas to get exposed...especially with the prodding of Nick facing a major life decision soon. Charlie's love has also shown Nick that he IS worth love and being seen and valued... I mean, just LOOK at the middle panel today...the love, the safety, the warmth, the reassurance, the combined protection and tenderness, all wrapped up with a very emotionally intimate forehead kiss...it's one of Charlie's softest and fiercest declarations of "NICK...I'm here, I love you, I AM HERE and we are going to make it okay, together." This whole page is a warm, unified picture of THEM with its consistent night lighting (other than the tiny warm glow of my new favorite Christmas tree)...there are no isolating dotted darker spots or blurred edges of the panels, and even then vertical lines on Charlie's comforter seem to point up to THEM, aligning them...it's a glimpse into how they are maturing in their relationship where shit is going to happen (and individual Odysseys taken...I love the poster placement), but together, they can handle it...this page embodies their love and space understanding of each other...it's their definition of HOME, even when there is pain. "I'm right here..."

Cliff

Yes, Nick, you are more fragile than Charlie, at least at this exact moment in time. Charlie’s self-awareness gained through therapy means so much. I know in the long run Nick gets there too, but it is a process that requires work.

Jordan

What a beautiful contrast to Nick’s earlier flashback of his dad saying basically “stop crying or I’ll leave” - now Charlie is kind of saying, “it’s okay to cry, I’m right here no matter what” 🥺 ❤️‍🩹

Ania W.

I didn't think that today's page would break me more than the previous one 🥺 The beautiful thing, however, is that slowly, little by little, Nick is taking off the armor he has worn for years.

Larisa

Their forehead kisses will be the end of me 💔💔💔 Nick trembling like a leaf in Charlie's arms 💔💔💔😭😭😭😭

Tina

omg i missed them

Holly Roberts

It is break my ♥️.. I hate to see Nick get hurt and cried and don’t want to lose Charlie… They love each other so much… 😔

June

It breaks my heart every time to see Nick upset and cry💔 Their forehead kisses is so sweet😫.. i'm so glad Charlie is next to Nick to give him a big cuddle when he's having bad dreams..❤️

laurimini

My heart hurts so much for Nick 😭 this page is so so special ❤️ "I'm right here" 😭😭❤️‍🩹

Jodie KH

💔💔💔

K Lyn

Charlie is the best bf ever.

Cole Morin

Ugh 😩 Nick….The love they share is so strong and real, no dream can change that. His fears of being apart from Charlie are manifesting in his dreams. It’s scary, but Nick just needs to take a deep breath, let their love surround them and know they are both safe in Charlie’s bed embraced in each other’s arms. I know reading these pages we all just gotta breathe lol wooof waking up today seeing this and just sobbing in bed lol.

Brandy78

Ooofff, my heart this morning. “I’m right here” ❤️❤️

Caitlin

Poor Nick has also been through so much and needs somewhere to process it. Someone get this boy a good therapist!

Kim

Nick has had very few supportive male figures in his life. It's so amazing they have each other. Charlie ❤️

Katrina

I love how Charlie is showing how Nicks father was wrong. Charlie is letting Nick be vulnerable and cry and is not leaving him ever. The I’m right here proves that. This is such a beautiful page. They needed this cuddle they really did. I love how they love each other so much.

Ava

💕🥹😭🥺💗💖 Ugh my heart is melting it’s so so so beautiful to see Charlie support Nick during his vulnerable moments in the opposite way like Nick supported Charlie. They are so safe with each other. The love and comfort they have. Nick felt so scared knowing Charlie’s reaction to his dream. I overthink too and it’s very hard to not with my anxiety. The fact his arms are wrapped around Nick just gives the ultimate safe space. I love them so much. Alice thank you so much for this page. It’s one of my favorite pages ever.🥺 I love them so much they are just so cute and sweet and they are so in love with each other Can they just have a ring already😂💕😭

Claire

I love the shading on this page and the shapes of Nick and Charlie's bodies as they hold each other. What an illustration of the harm that being forced to suppress emotion this is. And even more the devastating effect of feeling rejected by a parent. 😞

Button
>>159672638

Damn, reading through this comment made me tear up a little 😞. Your post comments always make me relook at any page with new perspective and deeper understanding of what's being said and not said, what's being shown and not shown, what's implicit and what's not. Thank you for the comments you post. Hope you had good holidays!!

Noah

I wonder if Nick will eventually seek professional help to process his emotions. Charlie will always be there for him but Nick’s emotions are intense and layered. I’m reminded of another character (Connell) from a show “Normal people”. Both characters hid their emotions and did have the words to say that they felt until it reached a breaking point. It would do Nick good to maybe even talk to him mom.

2catlovers

Nick’s separation anxiety is so strong - deep rooted fear that the ones who support him will be ripped away permanently. Poor baby - he’s reverted to his child-self. 💔

Loveislove

How hard it is to see Nick shaking like this. Charlie's eyes are so sad but so calm and his arms, fingers, whole body and spirit are focused on calming Nick and reassuring him. How hard to hear Nick apologizing for crying and being emotional - fucking Stephane- Issues are being linked here and I hope it becomes clearer to both Nick and Charlie. They know that ultimately the best way to handle anything is together. It is difficult but a relief to have some forward momentum in this journey ❤️‍🩹

Lauri

I love them ❤️

Loveislove
>>159681750

Yes please - bring on Sarah. And yeah, Connell/Paul crying just destroyed me - much like Nick/Kit.

tara🌞

oh baby☹️☹️☹️

aniatka
>>159668793

Same thought. That's so mature that Charlie takes that really seriously and understand how devastating was the dream. I still hope that he has the next hint how bad Nick headspace is rn. But also the whole scene, although difficult, what än incredibly sweet ❤️🤗

Lotta HR 🩷

Oh babys🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

Gregory Toner

Two things this has made me realize one (and I know I have said it before) the Diary makes this so much deeper and MY GOD THE TWO WEEK BREAK UP FROM “NICK AND CHARLIE” 🥺 ohhhhh god poor Nick it must have been hell for him 💔

Ellen🌈✨

so much space free in their bed, Nick and Charlie are holding each other so tightly 🥹

camelotcrusade

It has nothing to do with this beautiful page, but I bought a tree like theirs and now it watches over us when we sleep during the holidays, too. 🎄🌟

Lolli98
>>159688430

I'm still wondering if the break up will really happen in this storyline or if it's more an alternative universe, because the characters aren't the same anymore. Right now I cannot imagine Charlie from volume 6 behaving like the Charlie from the novella.🤔

RCM
>>159672638

Thank you so much, Button. That means a lot🫶

Brittany Cournoyer

The worried look on Charlie’s face in the last panel 🥺

Chandler Ritch

I've been in situations like this, both in Charlie's and nicks shoes, it's a very scary thing to go through

Joni

I love the love on this page ❤️‍🩹

Chris

These poor traumatized babies 😭

RyGy

Oh poor Nick :(((((

Murgy

Those fears hit different in dreams, and can really mess you up immediately. But thankfully Charlie is right there to comfort Nick and give him big hugs.

mal

LITERALLY SOBBING 😞🙌

Jenny

it’s such an awful feeling at any time. but with his emotions so heightened already i’m sure it’s even worse

Loveislove
>>159688430

Same - Alice has created so much growth and change in both Nick and Charlie since she wrote the novella.

Katie🐝

Can’t stop looking at this and pouting 😭😭 they’re holding eachother so tight

Gregory Toner
>>159688430

Alice said at the beginning of this chapter that it exists but will just be refers to not actually seen in the comic it is cannon

Gregory Toner
>>159688430

And I think because of the growth that comes out of the breakup I think it is needed like Charlie says at the end after the breakup up, their relationship changed and I think the ultimate sign of that is Nicks first night in Leeds the trust they had in their relationship at that moment is what allowed both of them to react so well to the pass Miles made at Nick.

artxsta

oh nick :( the fact that there is always somewhat a fear of losing someone you love, but the events of the year prior (charlie at A&E and in treatment) made these fears so much more real for nick is so heartbreaking. now w this development of the dream, he and charlie are now piecing together what is going on under the surface, and although it’ll be painful at first, nick unraveling and being unable to repress how is he truly feeling will be so healing in the long run and bring them so much closer. both charlie and nick are leaders in their respective areas, as head boy and rugby captain, so they’ll be able to guide and lean on each other as they navigate this new territory together

Brittney

My heart feels like it's breaking quite a bit, I know how Nick feels like I know it was just as hard for him because when Charlie opened up and told him everything. That fear does come in, and it takes over. Unfortunately, I know how this is like when others worry with me with my mental health. Anyways. Back onto this part, damn... we really are getting more insider towards everything like we are peeling back every layer. Like we are finally getting around how much all of this affected Nick during everything, I mean his mum was right, like it's a lot for a 16 year old boy I know but now he's 18 but it's still a lot of weight on his shoulders, but it's okay now Nick, but I know we are going to see more moments like this and wow.. it's going to crush us even more but in a way I'll admit it's good to understand more since we were focusing on Charlie's story and journey and now it's time for Nick's

David C Witkin

Oh, Nicky. Let the dam burst and let it all out. Let Charlie love you and soothe you. You both deserve it. Let both your hearts break in the safety of each other's arms and heal together all the stronger!

Nils

Huh. Poor Nick, but please get help it sounds as if you have abandonment issues, not that surprisingly with your das but there is help available

Neenie

Protector Charlie activated

Maya

The double meaning of “I’m right here” as reassurance that the dream was not real and meaning “I’m here, I’m not going anywhere” 🥺🥺

Ashley Robinson

Charlie verbally reassuring Nick in multiple ways. That it is not real and that he is right there. Along with his hold and kiss. It’s multiple ways he can let Nick know he is there and he is okay.

DogBefriender22

💔 ❤️ ❤️‍🩹 A painful but beautiful page. Feeing Nick’s pain over the unbearable possibility of losing Charlie (for any length of time let alone forever!) and yet hopeful that having Charlie there next to him immediately on waking could be a great help in speeding up the healing process - instant affirmation that he is ‘right there’. And obvs the magical healing power of a long tight Charlie Spring cuddle and forehead kiss 💖 And for Charlie, this is a huge deal too - seeing how traumatised Nick is after thinking he’s lost him… not only a clear and raw reflection of Nick’s hard to articulate and deeply repressed emotions, but it must also feel to Charlie like a super strong affirmation of Nick’s deep and intense love for him seeing him so distraught after that dream… So many layers to this beautiful story ❤️

Allegra2346

Tao 🤝 Nick Abandonment issues Here’s a devastating thought for all of you: do you think Tao and Elle have had this exact same thing happen?

Loveislove
>>159720787

Well - maybe not exactly the same but Tao and Elle do have their problems in the Nick and Charlie novella.

Loveislove
>>159716958

Maybe also a clue to Charlie how much trauma and fear Nick is holding onto after their experiences with Charlie's mental health journey. I think Charlie is in a state of recovery but Nick is not - I don't know if these two have communicated how to process past events and how to move forward...but they need to ❤️‍🩹

Eileen

Awwww

Jazmine Terson

AWWEEEEWEEEEEEE MY HEART CANT TAKE ITTTT 🥺🥺🥺😓😓😓😖😖😖😞😞😞😪😪😪😪😪😪😪😪😪❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Kassie K Wilson

🥺😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 anxiety dreams are the worst… poor Nicky 🥺🥺🥺🥺

Kassie K Wilson
>>159729894

Also, the way I am completely unprepared but absolutely need this in the show… can’t even 😭😭😭😭

Daya

❣️

Idaemilie

Nick🥹 I really feel sorry for you now having such a difficult time. I really hope you can get out of this situation soon and get help for the struggle of your feelings ❤️ Charlie you are so caring 🌟🌟

DogBefriender22
>>159716958

Yes absolutely - I was thinking about this last night before falling asleep. I think Charlie is now starting to see the real impact of his ED journey on Nick and how terrified he is - every day - of what could happen in the future. The pressure of trying to be the perfect bf all the time to support Charlie on his journey, and avoid any possibility of a relapse, but not addressing his own daily state of fear, as well as the loneliness of feeling lost and uncertain about his future and not being able to talk about it. Slow and little steps but we are getting closer to them understanding each other even more. This will be one of those really special scenes on screen too ❤️

Button
>>159672638

You're welcome. Every time a new page is published, I actually look forward to your comments. Everyone's comments offer something actually but yours always go a bit deeper into the story and nuances. Even Alice thinks so as she likes your comments also.

Jerod P

this may just be the cutest thing i’ve ever layed my eyes on