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ACxo

Aled is such a mood

Shin__

He went off track

Lex

Nick needs a bit of water

Carina

Oh no ☹️

Kas

Crash out Nick in 3...2....

abbie

nick is totally wasted rn

ACxo

Tara really is the peace maker of the group

Caiterz

😬😬😬

Molly Goat

Oh nooooo. Who's stressed? I'm stressed.

Charlie

Yeesh, shouting it louder doesn’t make it true 🥺 if you’re in love everything will be fine. I wanna hug him so bad!!!

Ulises

Oh he’s freaking out ☹️

Christie

Drunk Nick 🫣

Merel

Poor Tara and Aled, caught up in the middle of all this...

Mari

uh oh

Katya818

Uh oh...🫣🫣🫣

Märta Birkner

Poor thing is spiralling 😥 and Tara, the responsible friend looking out for him

Maja

not the projecting of your own insecurities on others :(

Lissie

Oh this isn't going to end well 🥺

emily

aleds face again i can’t

Nyssa Rawther 🍉

Oh, dear. Sweetie, baby...I'm glad Tara has her bestie Spidey senses on blast though...maybe Nick does need to go to Charlie. Not to help pack up, but just to cuddle and TALK ffs Nicholas...

tess ^_^

thoughts and prayers for aled last in this moment fr

nate

Tara and Aled panicking is so real

Katie H

I can feel Nick's anxiety coming through the page 🥹

Mila.xx

He's just in love

gaby

oh mom come pick me up i'm SCARED

Laura Arbiter

He is so desperate to believe that everything will be fine 💔

Victoria Panaro

Ohhhhhh Nooooo this is not gonna end up well, also who is driving them back home??

Michael Hocking

Bad golden retriever! Bad! Bad good golden retriever!

James

Oh he’s panicking

Jo Mary

Poor Nick hopefully he opens up to everyone about his problems loving the new pages Alice they are amazing 🫶🏻

Sonia

Drama it's coming

Antonio

"if you are in love everything will be fine" is what nick keeps telling himself when he's not okay

arlo🦕

oh no i feel something coming

Merel

Nick so desperately wants to believe that everything will work out on its own as long as you're in love. He doesn't want to face the fact that he needs to work on himself and his relationship with Charlie. And I get it, it's scary to confront your issues like that. But things won't magically turn out fine just because you're deeply in love.

Maggie

Oh bb.

CinD

I’m feeling like Tara right now 😵‍💫 something is about to go down I don’t know what but I feel like this is just the top of the rollercoaster 🎢

Katha

Oh, I’m so here for this pub-concert-Christmas-drunk-big-feelings-friends-conflict-epic night ❤️!

Oliver

Oh lord nick baby 😂😂 hopefully going to charlie will be helpful for him, tara could walk him over if shes worried about him <333

Jeffrey Ricker

Disaster bi, incoming! (Nick's overwhelming need for everything to be okay is kind of heartbreaking, but also so relatable.)

Jmejimz

Drunk Nick is giving me second hand embarrassment 😅

Tina

i love the drunk bubbles

ana

everybody pray for my boy nick nelson nothing wrong with him (except he’s drunk) he’s just about to have a mental breakdown

Katie H

The waviness of the panels showing how drunk and such a state Nick is in 🥹

Dionne Lakey

Tara's head tilt is an added telling off, love it

Steph

Nicks so drunk he’s about to fall over. Now is not the time to give relationship advice. Find Charlie, have a cuddle and please talk about your feelings in the morning…lol

Jaynie

🫣🫣🫣🫣🫣 these pages are so good Alice. I'm so anxious for what's next! Omg

Frances

So here’s my interpretation: I feel like Nick is compensating for his parents separating when he was a small boy… he doesn’t want that to happen to himself or anyone in his friend group cause it was obviously traumatic for him. So he’s convinced that love is enough to make a relationship work…. 🥺 I feel for him a lot, it’s very relatable!

laura

it’s going downhill guys, hold on tight 🫠

Adrian

Nick is too young to understand love at times is not enough

Frances

It’s very intense. Alice really knows how to keep us in suspense 😬

John Deuel

Tara with the wisdom once again. Nick still has to make some mistakes on his own, I guess. We’ve all been there, and it’s going to ache watching it all play out…

Steph

I just joined this Patreon a couple weeks ago and was able to read everything up till then in one sitting. Waiting every day for a new page is like torture 🤣

Noemiette

I love this honestly. People tend to call Nick and Charlie super mature for the way they are communicating, and in some way they are. But they are still teens, and still have a looot of growing up to do. Because loving someone doesnt solve everything, and doesnt mean you wont separate. Life is not that easy. I actually dont fully know if he 100% believes what he is saying or if he is trying to convince himself of this as a form of denial with his current struggles and to reassure himself. He is building this little fantasy world around himself full of sunshine and rainbows. I feel like we are stepping in toxic positivity here, and he's not gonna be able to hold up the illusion in his head for much longer before he breaks I fear. A big bravo to Tao for answering in a calm but curt way and for not blowing up at a clearly hammered Nick (who I hope will learn a lesson about alcool cause he is gonna feel horrible the next day)

Nikki

Think Nick is trying to convince himself more than anyone right here. He’s so keen for everything to be good between himself and Charlie without doing the work but life just doesn’t work like that does it. If he’s not careful he could upset himself, Charlie and their friends 🥺

Maddy

He's not trying to convince them. He's trying to convince himself. 🙁

Liz

Omg the 😬 face is the exact face I made after reading before scrolling down to see what Alice had to say. Nick is being very drunk and very cringy.

Avery moss

someone please save aled from this conversation 😭

Avery moss

now listen i’m dreading what’s coming but tao pulling out the “who tf asked” card made me giggle just a little bit

Brandy78

Oh my! 😬😬😬😬 Indeed, and I am still 🫣🫣drunk bubbles and wavy panels!

Mikaila Shaw

These pages are making my anxiety rise every day

Elfi

This is so hard to watch! 🫣 And I can't wait to see more.

Jonathan Payne

Oh Nicky. You are spiraling! Help, Charlie!

Brittney

Oh Nick, didn't I say yesterday that I had a feeling he was going to get snapped at? Tao easy, he's just trying to help but I know Nick you shouldn't really get involved just let them handle it. I mean, he is trying, but this is how you put your brain in overtime, no wondering our heart rates always go up due to things like this because our anxiety peaks

Loveislove

I've realized I have no chill and the story would have been over months ago as I escalate the plot way beyond a page a day. Looks like I'll have Nick and Charlie married by next week. Alice is superior to me 🙃.

Vantacy_1912

Nah now I’m just growing over protective over pages…just let man leave the room and make conversation he really needs. It’s not like he is comfortable sitting there anyway.

Loveislove

And now Alice is using my preferred emojji for this scene - 😬 - I'm thinking Nick is about to go down Tiimmbberr!!

Kristen

Oh boy! Hope he doesn’t hurt himself when he lands… Maybe drunk Nick will open up a bit to Char! 😬🍂😔❤️

Dean Horn

Nick times a thousand. 😂 Alcohol does that. And ya, he’s projecting. But he’s Nick, and he’ll just be extra nick while drunk which is definitely preferable to a jerk who’s drunk. I just hope Charlie can handle him.

Carrie Lindley

I find this page really upsetting. I get what folks are saying... Nick needs to work on himself and his relationship so it will actually last, being "in love" isn't enough, etc. But as someone who has actually been in a relationship for 30 years, married for 26, I think if Nick had said "if you love each other everything will be fine" that's actually true. Because to me real love is super forgiving and flexible and changes over time and prioritizes your partnership. And sometimes you only have 10% to give, and your partner gives 90%. And sometimes you give 90% while they give 10%. And that's not always easy, but it is simple. Because love is also work. And even though Nick doesn't totally get it right here, I still think he's more right than anyone else at that table in terms of knowing what it takes. And he and Charlie have already experienced love in hard times. And I think people like Nick who think love is this important are more likely to go the distance than those who think, well it's complicated and people change and circumstances change and and and... So, I know he needs to work on himself and his communication and his fears, but yeah. This page (and the friend group and the direction of folks' responses)... not my favorite.

Marie

Nick is on his own. As always.

Elena

I would have expected a way more angry reaction of Elle or Tao. 😅 But yeah, Tao said "we really didn't ask", so that is pretty direct anyway. 😅

Puppies&Kittens

Tara tried to save the boy, but he's going down isn't he? Oh, Nicky baby.

Jess🍂

This can’t be good….

Ky

uh oh

DioVosje

I HOPE Charlie will catch Nick just in time

Katrina

Oh boy he’s still super drunk and he’s spiraling I sense a disaster since that’s the recipe for it. Nick buddy being in love won’t fix all your issues remember when your mom said love can’t cure a mental illness? you fix them by working on yourself and your relationship not just because you’re in love. Please go talk to Charlie because you are really projecting your insecurities. Common Tao W with the we didn’t ask. Poor Tara and Aled they are panicking so hard.

Evergreen

I agree with you somewhat coming from the perspective of a long marriage, too. It does take work, because anytime two humans are in a close, constant relationship they are bound to hit up against the ways they are capable of annoying or disregarding or hurting one another, but I agree that there often is a simplicity to it. Not in every relationship all the time, but often the simple fallback to your commitment to one another is the answer. But I would also say that, for me, even though loving each other is the answer, it’s not the end of the matter. Falling back on that commitment usually means making a decision to talk to one another about the issue, or talk to someone else, or soften your perspective, or adjust to suit the new situation, or stand up for the way you need to be loved, or make an agreement about how to proceed. I agree that none of this HAS to feel complicated and sometimes happens quite naturally, but at least for me it’s not ALWAYS natural or easy. I feel like Nick is both right and wrong here. It really can be simple, but it may not always be THAT simple. And deep down, he knows that, because as you pointed out, this isn’t their first big challenge. We know he’s right that it WILL be fine eventually, and it will be fine because of their love and commitment to one another. But Nick is probably about to remember that there are follow-up actions that need to occur to make that love real in this case. He and Charlie are really good at those things, and they have lots of experience at acting on their commitment to one another to get through difficult times. Now they have a chance to get even better at it.

Bianca

Idk why but reading this I can already start to see the show (season 4) of the actors actually playing out these scenes and gets me so hyped cause drunk Nick is giving chaos vibes 😅 and I love it

Ania W.

Did someone say Charlie? Nick is immediately ready to find him and help him. As long as he reaches his goal 😵‍💫

lexi

oh sweet boy

Carrie Lindley

Well said! I agree with you. I just think drunk Nick is still more right than the rest of his friends realize... and sober Nick *might* explain that "easy" comment a bit more effectively. He still needs to do the work, but we always still need to do the work (understanding ourselves, moderating our responses, sharing our feelings, making room for one another). But the love part is central to it all. And I really hope Charlie gives him a big hug, because I feel like Nick is so very alone right now... no one else in today's scene seems to get it and it's driving me nuts! LOL

GirlHero

yikes. the alcohol released the emergency break, and now nick is speeding toward the brick wall! tbf to tao and elle, i would not want to hear 3rd party advice in this moment either. like, give them a minute! they are saying what they feel, that is a good start, imo. i also get nick, tho. the ways we feel insecure and anxious can come out in such weird ways in our behavior, and our relationships. it’s wild. agree with tara…nick, sit down! i love these pages. the facial expressions are awesome, alice. elle’s eye roll from the previous page is my mvp!! 🫶🏽

Ania W.

Elle seems sad and pensive. Does she now wonder if her and Tao's love is strong enough to survive separation 💔

Evergreen

I love your use of the term “more right!” I think it’s so true! Honestly I’m not sure how much he is trusting his own statement at the moment, since he’s currently viewing his relationship through anxiety goggles. I think he’s scared to do the follow-up work at the moment because he’s still afraid any moment of tension will mean things aren’t “fine.” But we know they are, and I think this arc will teach him to trust it too. Deep down he already knows it.

Elena

Nick is so convinced of his opinion, that all you need is love and then everything works out fine, because he really wants to believe it himself. 🫠 Maybe he realizes now, that he has a problem with a similar issue. 😟 And I think Nick "understood the assignment" now, after Tao and Tara told him to stop, that he isn't really welcome in this situation anymore and when Charlie is mentioned, he feels like: that's where I need to go now. I could help my boyfriend and I also need him actually. But maybe his drunkenness leads to a slip... 😟

Holly Roberts

Something is off… what’s wrong with Nick??? Charlie need to hug him and kiss him to make him calm down… ♥️😔

ucfnurse

Nick needs some help….😯🫢😵‍💫💔❣️👍🌞🌻🫖🍶🛌✌️🕊️☮️

Justin S.

I can hear his loud lowercase convincing himself that things will be fine 😬

Steven

Okay… I couldn’t help but laugh. Someone mentions Charlie and drunk Nick immediately goes into ‘THIS IS A JOB FOR SUPERNICK’! 🤣 The only thing missing was ripping his shirt off. 🤣

Theaterboi27

Sparring with an inebriated teen is never advisable even if he is poking the bear, or the whole den, for that matter. Nick actually believes everything he is saying, drunk or not. "If you are in love, everything will be fine". Truth is, Charlie and Nick have caught lightening in a bottle with their relationship. There are people who go their whole lives without ever finding, feeling, and experiencing true love. N&C found true love, their soulmate, and first love, all at the same time. The love Nick has for Char is all encompassing euphoria. To Nick, the huge, massive force of true love, should be enough to solve everything. So, in fact, love is sort of blind. But (you knew the big "but" was coming), Nicky has already learned that this huge huge love he and Char have with each other was not enough to save Charlie with his mental health. The love he had for his father, was not enough to make dad stay. Down deep, he knows. Although the time and place are incredibly wrong, this moment has been building for quite some time. We should either brace ourselves for the next page, or let Nick go sleep it off in the back of the band van. Alice, we are in your hands...😰

Beam Bugge

nick: "if you're in love everything will be fine 🥰" tara: "sure grandpa now let's get you to bed"

toneelspeler

i hope that once nick makes deeper connections with his friends they less feel like the only option to deal w nick is to Call His Boyfriend. would love for him to be able to listen to his friends (like concerned Tara here!) and feel he can lean on them too (and for his friends to feel they can support him too!).

Loveislove

It may be a good thing to have the friends a little more tuned into Nick's struggles. They have seemed removed from them and Nick's drunkenness is bringing them front and centre. This was much the case before when the friends were not aware yet of Charlie's struggles. This may help Charlie support Nick or have Nick feel love and supported as well. Both Tao and Elle are being much more mellow with him than I expected which is very kind of them. Tara as well as Aled are also being very observant of his anxiety in these moments. Charlie is about to walk back into this mess and Sarah or David will probably see the tail end of it. With so many witnesses, I'm hoping Nick will realize everything is not fine and begin a self discovery and self help arc ❤️‍🩹

Elspeth Fougere

Eek. The bottled up fear. The attempt at confidence and reassuring himself. Its so hard holding on, in tough relationship moments 🥺

Gracie

I had a feeling they were gonna get mad at Nick

Doménica Dolly

So Nick is a yapper Drunk….i’m getting second hand embarrassment from him. Poor my dude, ig his tacfulness and accuracy goes out the window bcs he is not reading the room at all.

ZooKeeperHere

Oooooo I love seeing messy nick having some imperfect human moments!

n d

just when i thought it couldn’t get worse…. i have a sneaking suspicion this situation will, in fact, get worse

Juliana Barhorst

Oh sweet Nick is struggling hard! Charlie please get him home! This is going to be one hell of a hangover 😵 🥴

Doménica Dolly

100%, i always viewed Nick as someone that could lean into toxic positicity bcs of the way he regards life and has a very hopeful diminure lol. Anyway, it rubs the wrong way when people regard them as if they already were a functional marriage when they are only 16/18 and have a loooot of growth to do still. Life is pretty messy, and life circumstances get in the way as well, but that doesn’t mean they can not solve it together. I think they are allowed the benefit of the doubt since they are teens, and have still a long way to go.

Doménica Dolly

Also, he stood up too fast, he might be feeling really sick very soon….

Amber

Alice, today is exactly 1000 days since HS season 1 dropped on Netflix!!!!

Bloomin’ smol cuppa

Sounds like nicks trying to convince himself more than anyone else. And here lies is anxiety. 😭❤️

Lolli98

Wow, Nick is shouting?? Have we ever seen this before? To me it's clear, he isn't really shouting at Tao, he is shouting at himself, because THIS is what he needs to BELIEVE to survive rn.

Lolli98

Tara somehow calling Charlie for help to handle his slightly "out of order" boyfriend. 😯 I think on the next page Nick will have a break down...physically or mentally or both.

carly

uh ohhhh it’s giving child of divorce who was told “it’s okay mommy and daddy love each other it’ll be fine” when he overheard them fighting a few too many times

Elena

Oh my god! So today is the 1000st day since I'm an heartstopperfan!! 🥹🤩❤️ I watched it the day it came out (❣️22.04.2022❣️) finished it in one setting and afterwards I immediately thought: "Okay, I'm gonna watch that again - NOW" 😅🤩 It is the best day, which changed my life forever❣️🥰 And it took me way too long to discover, that Heartstopper is originally comic based! When I found out about that, it was even better! 😅🥰 So thank you so much @Amber for this input!! 🥰🥰 And of course thank you to Alice Oseman! I will never stop being grateful for what they have created! 🥰🥰

rickettyuncles

I watched it all in one sitting that April too (I had finally caught COVID and was recovered enough to sit in front of the TV)—I had some reservations (I’d already read all the comics) but I stillwatched it all again that evening 😂 and have loved it ever since ❤️

Cliff

Oh, Nick.

Chloe ♡

praying queer intentions have finished putting the instruments away before nick trips up and breaks one 😭

Beam Bugge

he has shouted a few times before, he shouted at the ocean that he liked charlie, and i think he's shouted at david and ben a few times too!

Rae

I have a bad feeling about whatever’s gonna happen next

Cole Morin

He’s just so full of anxiety ugh Charlie get him home and in bed and we need a heart to heart moment!

Calfic

I LOVED the comic, so was kind of nervous about the adaptation. There was apparently no need to worry. Even with the changes, it still very much felt like Heartstopper!

David C Witkin

Nick is about to find out what happens when alcohol and gravity meet good intentions. And it's never all that good. Loud voices fall on sensitive ears, unsteady feet trip over themselves and bring large bodies to Earth, quesy stomachs have volcanic eruptions, emotional defenses crumble, and long-held illusions come tumbling down at the worst possible moment. And all we are left with is ourselves, and the ruins of our expectations, and a hangover.

Taylor Swift

Waiting for each update daily this is so messy

Calfic

I would think you might be a little busy, with Rep TV or Travis. (kidding.)

Calfic

I think love is, of course, critical, but it didn't save Charlie from a mental health crisis, and it won't save Tao and Elle from the very real disagreement they have, even if they had the most mature conversations ever. Though I think one shouldn't get into the habit of only yelling or being upset with each other, it also isn't healthy to ignore real tensions. Also, I agree that, at this point Nick is trying to convince himself more than anyone else. And I feel for Tara, trying to take care of one of her besties, but he is past being able to use reason.

zara ahmed !!

nick thinking love is the solution to everything is so interesting

Button

Oh drunk Nick. You should really sit down. I have a feeling he's going to go outside in his drunken state and "help" load instruments in the van and break one of them. That may cause the conflict with Charlie and his band mates. Which lead to sloppy drunken apologies and arguments about being so drunk but hey, such is life!!! As for the conversation at the booth and the things he's saying, I hope Elle and Tao don't get upset with Nick given his state. Another great page Alice!!! Looking forward to more!!

Calfic

I can feel the hangover coming. I hope even if Charlie is upset, that he is kind and that he saves the big talk for the day after once Nick recovers a little.

Daya

Uh Oh…

Brynn Rabinowitz

Tara can definitely see that something is bothering Nick.

Teri Lyn

That’s why Nick hasn’t opened up to Charlie.. he thinks just because they are in love he just thinks everything will be okay… Nick please sit down and calm down. SOMEONE GET HIM SOME WATER!!

Calfic

True. And maybe that is why she is just clocking how unwell Nick is.

artxsta

i’d absolutely LOVE to see this scene in the show. i think the dynamics would be so interesting and seeing them at bars out in the wild (drinking outside of a party or one of their houses) would be neat. also i think tara and nicks friendship in the show would translate rly well into a scene like this ! also poor aled looks so nervous in the last panel

Jasollie

This is all so painful for Nick. He is such a people pleaser and he just got sort of reprimanded (deservedly!) by Tara who is a friend he really respects. I don’t think Nick is used to saying the wrong thing and he probably was really embarrassed being called out like that by Tara (and yet is also probably not processing everyone’s reactions to him clearly bc of course he’s drunk). Whatever else happens now, he’s probably going to wake up and remember at least bits and pieces of it all and will probably feel so embarrassed and upset. Such a terrible feeling. 😭

RCM

All of your comments here making me all emotional...love hearing them!

RCM

My world has been super hectic the last week so I have been saving up looking at Alice' s patreon as my "reward" for getting through the day. It's good motivation to get shit done!

RCM

This page with its wavy, irregular borders, the floating bubbles (always make me think Nick is hiccuping, lol), another empty glass for Nick (I swear he has to throw up at some point), their friend group all back at the booth trying to patiently wait for Charlie and the band to pack up, with everyone else CLEARLY aware of Nick's verrrrrry tipsy state...isn't just the way pub nights can end up, with a WTF is going on moment?! Nick started out happy and festive, ready to support his hot, drummer boyfriend...and then in the space of many pints and multiple shots, he lost track and his intoxication level caught up to him. You can really see it in that top panel as he looks like he is yelling to get his point across, which is not very Nick like. He is somehow sweet and heartbreaking here, and comes across as obtrusive to Tao and Elle, but to me, he seems to be actually pleading...for love to conquer all. He's essentially, "just listen to me, if you two are in love, it's going to be fine! It will all be fine! Charlie is going to be fine. I love him! He loves me! He will be fine. I am going to be fine, too, right? Charlie loves me so I will be fine. ARE YOU LISTENING? You have to be fine because I don't really know if I am going to be fine without Charlie, and if you two love each other and aren't fine, my whole belief that we are in love and will also be fine is shattered and I want us to be fine. We have to be fine. I don't know how to be if I am not fine. I've always been fine, but now I only feel fine with Charlie. Love is what makes me fine and you fine, right?! Listen to me!" Sweet boy, he is hanging on to his well practiced (since childhood) mantra, "i'm fine" but everything is a bit mixed up in his inebriated state so he is hyperfixated on that one thing: WE ALL HAVE TO BE FINE. Tara being Tara and a good friend redirects him and asks about Charlie...which causes Nick to pause and (slightly) reflect, as we see in that third panel of just him looking down and blushing...whether from his ranting, the alcohol, or hearing Charlie's name (likely a combo). I can tell he IS pretty drunk here because we usually see the background go dark when Nick goes "inside" his head for a minute, yet it doesn't change here...but his one thing to hyperfixate on does to CHARLIE! Must help Charlie...but Nick, sweet love, you haven't stood up for awhile, you haven't had any food or water all night, and you have wavy motion around you...all signs that you aren't so steady on your feet. Be careful, love. Even Aled is flushing with worry...

Murgy

The foot is still firmly in the mouth. I know Nick is trying to help, but the alcohol is definitely not helping. Likely making Nick mess up his words/message, along with having driven him to step into the middle of someone else's argument while it's still a sore point and being loud about it. Booze can make all issues seem simple, along with putting you foot in your mouth and your brain into dumb dumb mode. I can't blame Tao for being annoyed, Tara's call to chill or Aled's worried face in the last panel. I get the feeling Nick is going to end up face down on the floor, hopefully not breaking something while doing it.

Allegra2346

Nicks face in the last panel is so funny to me, he’s just like “yes, this is a thing I am currently capable of.”

Elena

"No being sad on my Birthday" (HS S1 Birthday😅🥳) @RCM No, I really appreciate you sharing your feelings with us❣️🥰

Agosława

Oh, these wobbly lines next to Nick's arms while he's standing up. Walking is going to be a challenge 😬

Kela87

Nick's inner thoughts are just as I imagined them to be. Love MUST fix it all, right? But love isn't enough sometimes, and Nick is going to understand that soon I am afraid. I've said it before and I'll say it again: if Alice hadn't already made clear that Nick and Charlie are endgame, I would have been SO STRESSED right now.

Neenie

Waiting for S4 to be confirmed so I can anticipate William Gao destroying us

Jordan

I love how this story line, and especially this scene, is kind of in direct communication with fan perceptions of N&C being “perfect” and we now we get to see all the very realistic nuances - very genius storytelling!!