Rat messiah (Patreon)

You shipped me to Banff and all I’m doing is watching Dune theory videos in my studio and listlessly wandering the woods.

I’m doing the Banff artist residency right now. I spent all this time before I left preparing my Air Canada Gal costume and remaking it with my mom but I don’t feel emotionally connected to the character at this moment.

All I care about are false messiahs, prophecies, ego death, multi-millennium human eugenics breeding programs and sand. Which is funny because I’m in the completely opposite climate. I even started watching Lawrence of Arabia which Frank Herbert the author of Dune was inspired by. It’s an insane movie.

I think I need to let it happen, I’ve never been able to control where my brain explosions lead me. I saw K’naan at the airport when I was flying to Banff which also feels like an important omen.

Also guess what? I haven’t had a migraine all month since I took that medication. I’m wondering if my imagination is excited to be free and wants to sink its claws into something lore heavy. My super computer is finally running at full capacity and it wants to be the Kwisatz Haderach.

I’m also so emotional. Everyone else in my program is too. This residency is has a artist-cult-cruise-ship vibe. We are all trapped together and have mountain mania. Many people have already publicly cried in my program. It’s kind of cool but intense.

Feed me. If you have any other books or movies you think would nourish my obsession with these themes, I’ll eat them up. Obviously I’m planning on reading the entire Dune series.

P.s I’m gonna take some demure/cute/sexy nature pics so wish me luck that I don’t get eaten by a bear.

-Your genetically engineered rat