Hey... (Patreon)

I really don't know how or where to start, to be honest...

It's been over a year since I last posted, and first of all I wanna apologize for disappearing and thank the few of you that actually stayed here this long, you have no idea how much I appreciate it.

I have lots of messages that I never replied to and I'm actually a little afraid to actually reply after so long... Some are asking what happened, others just wanted access to the Mega archive. I paused this Patreon every time I remembered, but that was every now and then so I'm very sorry if someone felt scammed or something like that.

I'm gonna be honest. These past two years or so have been really hard for me and at times it was a losing battle against depression as bad things kept piling up in my life and it reached a point I just couldn't take it anymore and dropped this, my hobbies and even my studies. I don't wanna go into much detail on how bad it got, but eventually with the help of my loved ones and a lot of therapy I've reached a point where I'm back to my old self, or mostly.

If you ever feel things can't get any better, if depression gets you like it did to me, please seek help. There's always light at the end of the tunnel.

Two months ago I decided it was time to get things back the way they used to be and got into NAI again. Slowly I started to practice again but I kept delaying a 'come back' to Patreon as I was literally afraid of seeing how things were and what I would find. I kept pushing it so much that NAI came up with a new version and all that practice went down the toilet, basically.

I took another month and after a lot of trial and error I got a style I feel comfortable enough to make it 'my own', trying to capture the old one that I had back when I opened this account. It's still a little unstable and most likely will get some tweaking as time goes by, but I feel it's enough to actually post again or I'll keep delaying it until who knowns when. You have a peek with this image, the new pfp and banner on my profile.

So, what now? I'm not sure, to be honest. I wanna do a full comeback, I enjoyed doing this a lot, I feel it'll contribute to getting my 'normal' life going again but who knows if I'll get the support to do so, I'm a little scared of failing (I'm working on my confidence, or at least I try) but for the time being, I'll be posting again. I wanna try animating some images, so much has changed in the time I've been gone...

On the good side, I've already made a 32 img set featuring summer Chloe for all of you to see how the new style looks in more detail, and I mean, all of you, since I won't be charging for it. It would be very hypocritical of me to come back and immediatly start begging for money so works will be uploaded on the free tier for a while and if, and only if enough people show interest I'll go back to the old system that'll get a rework anyway in regards to their rewards.

Despite this, the paid plans will remain open if somebody's interested, so you can make requests and such like usual but the actual content will remain free for all.

Again, I'm very sorry for such a long absence and I hope we can reconnect in both goony stuff and in trust. Thanks all for reading, see you tomorrow with the set.

TLDR: I was depressed and now I'll do my best to come back to post regularly.