Believe me, I'm Gay E2 | My straight friend helps me understand my sexuality (Patreon)

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Neither of us messaged each other after what happened. 

On my end, I was horrified. I mean, I told him that I was gay. So, why did he have to insist that I prove it to him? 

That was the first time I've ever been hard in front of anybody. Naked, I mean. I guess I've had random boners in public before, like any other guy. 

That was also the first time my boner touched someone. And I think it touched his nut sack. I'm not sure though. It could've been his thigh, maybe. I felt something scratchy like pubes but it could've easily been his leg hair. Not that any of that changes anything. 

I told him I was gay. 

Later that night, Kai came back to my dorm. He lives in the same building, and it would have been just a matter of time before we bumped into each other in the stairwell. To be honest, as embarrassing as this incident was, I was not truly worried about our friendship. We go way deeper than that.

“Hey.” Kai raises a hand in an awkward wave. 

“Hey.” I mirror his action. 

“Uh… can I come in?” I let him in and he walks slowly into my room like it's his first time there. He settles into one of the chairs, and then stands back up. 

“Earlier, that wasn't cool of me,” he says with a ruffle in his hair. “Like uh, not believing you.” 

“It's okay,” I interrupt him and he looks mega relieved about that. 

“You're not mad?” Kai gives me an apologetic smile. I shake my head and pass him a game controller. 

Do I apologize too? Sorry for getting hard on you? No, that's stupid. He wouldn’t want to bring that up.

We played silently for a while, except for the occasional shout to coordinate our attacks. We ended up passing the mission that he wanted to do earlier, and at least that was satisfying.

But after, there wasn't anything to stop the tense silence anymore. 

“So, are you grossed out when I talk about pussy?” Kai asks without looking at me. 

“Why would I be?” My cheeks heat up, but my heart wants to continue the conversation. After all, it was me that wanted to come out to him. 

“Cause you're a homo,” he says. “By the way, you know I don't care about that right? I mean, I care but I mean like… you know what I mean. You’re my friend.” 

I nod, my entire body screaming at me to exit the conversation. Still, a tiny part of me yearns to discuss what I've been holding back. 

“It's fine if we talk about girls,” I say. 

“It's like 50 percent of what we talk about.” Kai looks relieved again. “But were you just pretending to be interested?” 

“I don't know. I think they're beautiful. Well, some of them anyway. But, I don't feel … wait… nevermind,” I try to explain and get lost in my own train of thought. 

“Maybe you're bi?” 

I've thought about that before. Maybe I am. I do watch straight porn too, and it doesn't bother me at all that a woman is there. I don't know how to explain it, but I guess I see her as a secondary character to what's happening. 

Kai asks me a bunch of questions like that, and I start to loosen up after realizing that he's just trying to understand like me. And as I'm answering the questions out loud, a lot of the answers suddenly seem more clear. 

“So when you're watching porn, you just ignore the woman?” 

“Not really. I mean, she's there. I just am more focused on the guy? I mean you have to look at them both right? They're doing it together.” 

Kai nods like he understands, then he launches a follow-up question that stumps me. 

“When do you bust?” 

My real answer would be when the male actor does. But that's usually completely focused on the woman taking it somehow, so that seems less gay. The more I thought about it, the more it feels like straight porn really is all about the woman. 

“Maybe I am bi,” I say.

“Only one way to find out,” Kai says, grabbing my laptop and going to a porn site. “Better like this than at your first hookup with the wrong person. Oh, come on Miles, don't be a wuss. Now I've seen it soft and hard.” He takes off his shirt. “We've got a mystery to solve.” 

He went further by taking off his pants and went to sit on the couch with just his boxers still on. Following his lead, I get undressed to the same degree and sit next to him. 

“One of my favourite videos so far,” he says as he clicks play. “Together? 3…2…1.” We slip off our underwear together and settle back in. 

I'm not surprised that Kai chose a video with a big chested brunette with glasses. He's never made it a secret that that's his type. The actress quickly gets on her knees and starts blowing the man. 

I saw it out in the corner of my eye first. He got hard rapidly, and his schlong elongated without any touch as he fixated on the blowjob on screen. It turned more pink as it morphed, and his loose ball sack shrank to resemble more what I usually see at the pool. 

“Well, you're hard for her too?” Kai’s attention to my crotch makes my dick twitch. “Are you looking at her or his dick?”

Neither. 

“This part is so good.” He leans forward to click on a well practiced time stamp. It's a scene of her riding, and we can hardly see the dick inside her. As my friend retracts his hand from the laptop, he gives his cock a quick tug to free his tip from the foreskin. “What do you think, buddy?” 

“It's hot.” My shaft jumps again as I look at my friend in his fully hardened state. 

Am I bigger than him? 

“God, I'd love to bang a chick like that.” Kai leans back on the couch, and the true nature of his curve reveals itself. It sticks out of him pretty much at a 90 degree angle, whereas mine curves up a little. 

“Yeah, me too,” I agree halfheartedly, leaning back too so I can keep him in my peripheral vision. 

“Maybe you’re bi then. Okay, it gets kinda boring after this. Just a bunch of fucking and then he cums on her face.” He grabs his underwear from the floor and puts it back on, shoving his boner in. As I do the same, he skips forward in the video to the end. 

“I'm going to cum! Yeah!” Cum flies in the video. Kai rubs himself through his underwear, and then closes the lid to his laptop. 

“Well, another mystery solved with the help of science.” He flashes a toothy grin at me. “At least that means we can still talk about chicks. Speaking of which, I've got a hookup tomorrow. Met her online.”

“What does she look like? Wait, tomorrow? I thought we were going swimming,” I say, watching my friend adjust himself in his black briefs again. 

“Man, have I ever ditched you before? I'll be there. Don't you worry your bowl cut over that.” The hand he used to touch his dick extends to my face and I freeze. 

My hair stays in its new place for two seconds before falling back on my forehead. 

“Alright. I'll see you tomorrow?” Kai stands up, the shape of his erection clearly outlined in his underwear. 

“Yeah, tomorrow.” I stand up too, aware that I'm probably bulging just the same. 

I think I am bigger.