Apologies regarding tiers and a sort of personal update? (Patreon)

A lot of you may have noticed I severely limited all the tiers and taken down the higher ones all together. This started as part of the break for marketing my book. As I told a few of you, I planned to bring the higher tiers back sometime in October.  They would have been revamped to be more doable for me (honestly as much as I loved all the projects I've done, I bit off WAY more than I could chew for way too little compensation for those higher tiers...)

Obviously they haven't come back, though, and that's because my ongoing mental health issues have continued to...go on.

It  just kept swinging down and got really bad for a while a little bit ago. I don't want to go into detail about it, I haven't been doing my usual feelings dump on tumblr about it because even discussing how bad it was felt painful. Aside from the aftermath of personal tragedies, it's the worst I can remember my depression and anxiety ever being.  There were even a few days a couple weeks ago where I wondered if I was going to end up being hospitalized for the first time in my life (I didn't hurt myself or anything though, don't worry).  Fortunately, the past couple weeks have been quite a bit better, and I feel stable and like I have something resembling energy again- but I'm trying to take things slow so it doesn't relapse.  I'm working with my psychiatrist and therapist a lot and hopefully our progress will continue. 

But in the meantime, there are a lot of things I need to figure out, which is why the limits will stay on the tiers for the time being . My writing energy and ability is just all over the place (mostly on the EXTREMELY low side) and while this is by far the least frustrating and most awesome responsibility I have, I just don't want to risk letting EVERYONE down if I try to do too much.

(Heck, you may have noticed I'm not even  managing to do the MCLL liveblog lately- basically I got spoiled for something that sounds a bit disheartening, and it's hard for me to summon the emotional grit to write in depth about potentially lukewarm feelings about something I've otherwise loved so much so far...I'm too swamped and too much of a fragile mess right now basically. but I'll do it! someday!)

 I DO really appreciate you all and  enjoy doing this! I love all the fun times and new experiences with you guys so much. This is by no means a burden and I think it actually really helps me to have this  (and gosh, can I use every bit of extra cash). But you guys have been so great I want to give you the best I can do, and do it on time. So, hopefully by next year my life will be more stable we'll be able to start expanding and doing bigger projects again, but for now, we'll stay like this. I'm sorry for anyone put out by this, and as always, questions, comments, suggestions are welcome.  I really do love doing this, love you all and  I hope we'll continue to have fun together.