Clean-Cut to Gutter Slut - Part 12 (Patreon)

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I stumbled back to the dorm on shaky legs, sweats still sticky. The woods behind the fields were dead quiet now. No Emily. No one. Just me and the taste of lacrosse dick still thick on my tongue. I pushed the door open—room empty. Brooks was probably at his fotball practice. Good. I didn’t want to explain shit yet.

I stripped fast, tossed the sweats in the hamper, and jumped in the shower. Hot water burned. I scrubbed my face, my chest, winced as the cum from my dick swirled down the drain. My reflection in the foggy mirror looked wrecked—red marks on my knees from the dirt, eyes bloodshot. I dried off, threw on clean shorts and a hoodie, and sat on the edge of my bed staring at the floor.

Then the door opened soft. Emily. Still in her sundress, braid a little messy now, eyes red and puffy. She wasn’t yelling. She wasn’t even angry. Just… sad. Hurt in a way that made my stomach twist worse than any punch.

She closed the door behind her and stood there holding the strap of her little purse like it was the only thing keeping her upright. “Ari… what was that?”

I stood up slow. My voice cracked on the first try. “Em… I’m sorry.”

She waited. No tears yet, just those big trusting eyes waiting for me to fix it.

“I’ve been… doing stuff. With other guys. For a while now.” I couldn’t look at her. “Not just today. Months. Since the summer. I tried to stop. I swear I tried. But I couldn’t.”

She took a shaky breath. “You mean… you’ve been cheating on me, with guys? This whole time?”

“Yeah.” My throat closed up. “I’m not the guy you think I am. I haven’t been for a long time.”

She reached up, fingers trembling, and unclasped the silver cross necklace I’d bought her for her birthday. The one she wore to church every Sunday like it meant something. She set it on my desk next to the pizza box from earlier. The little cross clinked against the wood.

“I loved you,” she said quietly. “I really thought we were going to get married. Start a family. Build that life.” A single tear slipped down her cheek. “I guess I was wrong about a lot of things.”

She didn’t slam the door. Just pulled it shut behind her with a soft click that felt louder than anything.

I sat there staring at the necklace until the door opened again. My phone started ringing—Mom. I let it go to voicemail. Couldn’t deal with her voice right now.

Then, Brooks stepped in, gym duffel over his shoulder, still in practice gear. He took one look at my face and froze.

“What happened, Emily looked wrecked”

 “It’s over. Emily showed up. Saw me. In the woods. With some lacrosse guy in that sketchy cruising area.”

His voice went flat. “What, literally five minutes after you tried to get it on with me?”

“Yes. I’m fucked, ok? Fucked in the head! I’ve been messing around with other guys for months, not just you.”

I waited for the hate. For him to call me a disgusting whore, for him to pack his shit and move out. Instead he did something far worse.

He crossed the room in two steps and pulled me into a hug. Strong arms around my back, one hand on the back of my head, chin resting on my hair like I was something worth holding together.

“We’ll work it out,” he said quietly against my ear. “You and me. Whatever this is, we’ll figure it out.”

That hug felt worse than any punch. I almost wished he’d yelled. At least then I’d know where I stood.

Thirty seconds later it buzzed again. A text.

Mom: Sweetie, Emily’s mom just called me in tears. She said Emily walked in on you with another boy?? I’m driving up right now. We’re going to fix this. I love you no matter what.

The room tilted. My whole world collapsed in one fucking text. Emily’s mom knew. My mom knew. Everyone would know by tomorrow. And everyone was about to see exactly what I really was.

I couldn’t do this.

I grabbed my keys, my wallet, and the cash I still had from the summer. Brooks tried to stop me. “Ari, wait—”

I was already out the door.

I drove until the dorm lights were far behind me. Found a cheap motel off the highway—cash only, no questions. Paid for three nights. Texted the same shady group chat I’d used all summer, plus everywhere I could post: “Motel 6 off exit 47. Room 112. Tonight. No condoms. Free use. Bring whoever you want. Door unlocked.”

I left the door cracked, stripped down to nothing, and sat on the edge of the bed staring at the stained carpet. My phone kept lighting up—missed calls, texts, Brooks, Mom, even Emily. I turned it off.

Footsteps in the hallway. Heavy boots. The door creaked open wider.

First guy stepped in. Sketchy as fuck—late thirties, stained hoodie, beard patchy, eyes already hungry when he saw me naked and waiting. He didn’t say a word. Just locked the door behind him.

I spread my legs wider.

Before he could even pull himself together, the door slammed open again. Brooks stormed in, eyes wild, phone still clutched in his hand. Then it hit me—I’d forgotten to turn off Snap Map before shutting my phone off.

“Ari, what the fuck are you doing?”

The sketchy guy froze. “Yo, this a private—”

“Shut the fuck up!” Brooks snapped, voice like steel, the other guy backed down.

I stood up fast, heart pounding. “Brooks, leave. Just go. You don’t want to see this.”

He grabbed my arm, not rough but firm, and pulled me out into the parking lot in nothing but my skin and the cold night air. The door clicked shut behind us. I tried to yank away. “Let me go! This is what I am now, okay? Just let me do it!”

He didn’t let go. He backed me up against the concrete wall between rooms, hands on my shoulders, eyes locked on mine. I waited for the disgust. For the hate. For him to finally see me the way I saw myself.

“I don’t hate you,” he said, voice low and steady. “I love you — as my best friend, maybe more, but that’s not what matters right now. You’re lost, man. This isn’t you anymore. You need help.”

My palms felt sweaty. I felt like I could puke. I’ve never felt so torn in my life—torn between doing whatever I wanted right here, right now, or Brooks. The choice should have been obvious, but I was not sure.