I am so sorry. Also thankful. (Patreon)

Before I get to the meat of this post, let me start by saying that nothing is wrong with the update. As a matter of fact, I managed to fix all of the bugs the collision engine update caused for the Slimes today, which was the biggest thing that was holding it back - I had already spent a while trying to fix them and made almost no progress, so I wasn't sure how long that was going to take me. The update is proceeding along very smoothly and I fully expect it to be out in a day or two. If you're not interested in a lengthy post with apologies and the like, feel free to stop reading here, and I'll see you in a few days with a real update!

The reason behind this post, as you may expect from the title, is for me to offer a sincere apology to every single person who has pledged to me recently - and beyond that, every single person looking forward to Crisis Point. The funny thing about major life events is they kinda screw with your perception of time. In my experience so far, the more serious and life-changing the event, the more it fucks with you. Over the last year, I've nearly died in a car crash (making me truly realize my own mortality for the first time), gained about $7000 in debt, flown all the way across the US four times (when normally I travel once every few years at the most), lost my father to cancer, moved to a new apartment.. it's been a busy and overwhelming year. I don't mean to use any of that as an excuse, I just figure it's worth writing it down for perspective. A few hours ago, if you had asked me how long it's been since the last Crisis Point release, I would have sadly told you it's taken me 3 months. A few minutes ago, I realized that was wrong, and it's been five. 5 months in a row with barely any progress made.. and still so many of you are here. I am humbled by the trust and generosity you've shown me, and truly ashamed of how little I've done with it. I don't know whether to thank all of you or apologize. Probably an equal amount of both, with a healthy dose of getting-my-shit-together on the side.

The last year - especially the last 6 months - has been the hardest time of my life, and I'm still coming to grips with all the things that have changed, and all the things that need to change going forward. I can tell you with confidence that I am improving; I'm more ready for this project than I've ever been, to make it something excellent for everyone to enjoy, no matter what hardships I go through to get there. I am truly sorry for how long it's taken me - but instead of focusing on the negatives of how bad I feel, I'd rather focus on how unbelievably, indescribably thankful I am. To all of you who are still here donating to me, to all of you who aren't, even to all of you who never have - every word of encouragement to help me keep going, every dollar given to make sure I don't starve, you've been there for it all and I owe everything I have to you. I know I've said it before, and I might not have always come through, but that old, unreliable Anon is dead now - I killed him off myself, and it's time to look towards a brighter future. One with even more boobs than we have now.

<3 you all so much. See you in a day or two with an update release!
-A42