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Yesterday could have saved me and given me hope to leave Ukraine, but I did not expect that everything would be so bad. My parents found a car to get around, so I bought a lot of different food and supplies in advance that I can cook on my own. The stores are almost empty, but I managed to buy at least something, just because I am in the city without panic. Yesterday morning my parents and I went by car to the border of Ukraine and Romania. The cars were already 9 km from the border. We connected to the traffic and began to move forward a little. At first, we were determined to be like this for a day and two. I can cook food, I have all the utensils. But we just stood. It seems like one car drove in every 30 minutes. People are all angry, and all because a lot of cars drive forward in the oncoming lane and try to get into the queue. The worst thing is that some have weapons because you can just buy them now or even give them out under martial law. So it was very dangerous to go to scandals. In 5 hours, we drove 1.5 km. And now it is almost evening, the time is 4.30 pm and I decide to walk the remaining 8 km. Without saying goodbye to my parents, I went with my girlfriend. I took the most necessary with me with a supply of food and things. It was difficult, but in 2-3 hours we got there. I was with one large hiking backpack and one small backpack stuffed with equipment. Since I have a disability and an exemption from martial law, I had the advantage of crossing the border. I approached the border guards to ask, but one answered me “they will let me through”, and when I approached another, he said, “you should only be the guardian of a disabled person, or you should have a very difficult disability, they will not let you through.” And now I'm 50/50. I STOOD FOR 5 HOURS AND THERE WAS A MAXIMUM OF 30 PEOPLE OUT OF SEVERAL THOUSAND AND MORE THAN 10 CARS. Once, one of the border guards came out and said over the last day they let only 800 people through. At the border, many became ill. Even one person died from such a load. I stood on my feet for 5 hours and when I saw that people were simply not allowed through, I simply went back. And it is not the Romanian border that is being let through, but my Ukrainian troops. They do not let in not only guys but everyone. Women with children also scream, the children fell asleep, but our border guards did not care. On the way back I met a man on crutches who had walked more than 10 km. When I was walking back, I wondered, how then do cars pass from behind, if at the border they have missed a maximum of 10 during all this time. And the answer is simple, they are advancing there, only because the cars are leaving, realizing that today they will not cross because of such chaos. I returned back to my parents and we went to a safe place to spend the night. I felt physically dead. It is difficult for me to move around because my whole body aches.

The same news came in the morning. While my parents were in a traffic jam in a car, they met people who were also trying to get out. Today a guy called and said “we went on foot and after 2 hours let my wife and child in. But men are not allowed at all. There was even a man with crutches, they didn’t let him in either and told him to go back.” Now I have completely lost hope of leaving the border.

I want to ask you not to advise me anything. Nobody takes it seriously. I know that many want to help but:

1. I will not cross the border of any country, since the problem is not in the countries of crossing, but in Ukraine, which does not allow

2. It is illegal to cross the border, it's the same as going back to the war, there is a very high chance that they will shoot and be right

3. Trainsefig, roofing is not taken into account, because I'm not alone. A girl or parents will not do this

At the moment I just don't know what to do. The fuel is running out on the car. There is nowhere to go, I can hardly move due to the overload of my body