Well at least I did my due (Patreon)

The 5th day of the war is over. Everything is, as usual, the war continues, one part of the people is on the defensive, the second part is trying to escape. Those who did not have time to leave suffer, and those who protect win. Yes, I am one of those who try to escape, but I want to save my life. I haven't lived enough in this world and I'm not ready to just die now. I know I'm acting cowardly, but my situation is not the best. Today, with my parents, I went to the border with Moldova, where I tried to pass. Surprisingly, there were practically no people, but I arrived at 9 in the morning. When the military approached, they began to check documents. I was told that there is a chance I will pass. Everyone except dad. At first, I didn't believe it was that simple. When I arrived at the border already with my things, they took my documents and began to carefully examine everything, and got to the bottom of one stamp. My military ID is missing a stamp stating that I am exempt from conscription. On the front side of the certificate, it says that I am not eligible, but on the back page, I am not released. The border guards advised me to go to the nearest military registration and enlistment office and ask to put this stamp. I quickly rushed to the military registration and enlistment office. When I got there, I saw a lot of people. All these people stood and waited for the buses to arrive to take them to the war. There are a lot of volunteers. I approached the Chief and tried to ask about my situation itself. I was very nervous because I am right at the place where they are taken to the war. After some time, they let me inside and I began to show all my extracts and referrals from doctors. The Commander-in-Chief looked at me and said, “What can I do? You came from Kyiv, I cannot accept you, because you are not registered with me. Go back to the city and they'll put a seal on you, but there's nothing I can do." And that's it, my hands are lowered now for sure. I returned to the border and tried to negotiate, but they simply turned me around and told me to get out of here. I said goodbye to Mom, Brother, and my Girlfriend. With dad took them to the border and left. At least they'll be safe.

There are no further plans. I just don't know what to do.

Many are interested in what is happening with my MS at the moment. Physically, I feel very bad. Tonight, when the sirens were on, people were waking everyone up, and I was so dizzy that I couldn't get up. My mind was in flight. Now there is a very strong emotional and physical load. Compared to my hobbies... Yes, there is nothing to compare, when I'm climbing, I can stop and say to myself “I won’t do this and rest or simply won’t climb”, but at the moment, I just have no choice. I just take 2 heavy backpacks and walk 10 km non-stop because I have to. I can not limit myself from all the experiences and shelling around. I just don't sleep well at night. Sometimes you have to sleep for a couple of hours and be ready. And I'm forbidden to do all that. I had an examination on the 22nd, I did not want to write about it, because on the 24th I had to go to the hospital. The examination says “a new focus has appeared in the central part of the brain that connects the left and right hemispheres.” I urgently need to go to the hospital for treatment, and I am evacuating. If I had more money, I would have gone abroad in advance and had an examination there, but I was scared of 80 euros for a consultation with a doctor in Germany. And what about the prices for examinations, medicines, hospital accommodation, personal care ... The last thing I wanted was to ask for money because I don’t want to feel like I should.