Recorded a Little of Moving in Progress (Patreon)

Hello, my besties, （╹◡╹）♡

So, here I am, Night Number 2 and WOW. The whooshing, overwhelming knock-down, rip-your-heart-out-and-grind-it-into-the-mud of sadness and loneliness paired with the it-hurts-so-damned-bad-I-can't-breathe is quite the thing, isn't it? We've all been here. Many times. I'm not special. But it's been awhile for me, maybe?

It is, though, interspersed with moments of excitement and hope for the near future and far future. My dreams (and and new ones) are alive and kicking. But I call R (and he calls me) and we cry a lot. It's all sad. But we both know why I had to leave. You know, but everything in the news is so much bigger than little old me, so I feel small and get-over-myself.

So, the movers came the day before the Lunar New Year. They made two trips. R holed up in his bedroom. After everything got moved over, to Obāchan's house, I messaged him and took him to dinner. We ended up at an Indian restaurant, but funnily enough, neither of us ate anything. I'm having left over naan and curry for Lunar New Year. No microwave or butter, so I'm heating it up in a fry pan with a splash of water to steam it. Not bad. I'm pretty sure this isn't the way the ancient Chinese celebrated though.

I wanted to share a (properly boring, I'm sure!) video of what the little abode looks like on Night Number Two.

I got the newest episode out and that felt great. I so, so, so miss it. Tomorrow -- among so many other things I need to do -- I'm putting together the "recording booth". You'll see it in the video. I'm going to try doing all the audio stuff by myself...I might do a bloggy/essay-y thing I wrote for you all and never posted. I need to learn how to do this myself. #sad #independent #yougogirl

I need to run back over to the house to pick up stuff still, the screens for surrounding the booth for number one.

Richard asked me today if I'd psychically/telepathically told the crows I was leaving because today was the first day in years they didn't show up cawing for me. All I can say is: 😭😭😭.

Yes, yes, I did. I figured they'd still show up though. Food is food. I left some little shiny gifts for them. I'll check to see if they took them or not. May I reiterate: 😭

In related news, I'm working on a young crow near here. I hear him stop by at the same time during the day and caw. We've made eye contact and he shivers when he sees that I've seen him. I need to get him to come to the part of the house where neighbors can't see me give him a peanut or two. The last thing I need is neighbor anger.

Okay. I've finished my Alien Beer (on video, too!). I'm going to try and find some music that doesn't make me sad and write down some plans and dreams. Oh, it's another post, but Julyan, Kaho-chan, and I are going to create something together. I want to pick your big brains about that.

But for now my sweet, sweet friends, take a deep breath. Breathe out longer than you breathe in. Repeat. I have so much more to share very soon. I hope you like the video, dorky, but I can certainly do more. XOOXO,

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