Still live (Patreon)

Day 1 since i sent a mail to patreon staff telling them the flaw of their last Updates
I deeply fear that they might kick me out.
Why?.. i dunno, i'm a NSFW artist, for my kind, being seen often mean being squashed. I ve no trust in any moderating team to ever take out side.
And even less the patreon one.
When paypal say "enforce this" they did, when Aple whistled, they came like a good dog, if Visa clap their hand twice they ll answer in the minute.
They enforce their behavior rules even out of patreon. If you post a something they don't like somewhere, they'll ban you.. and what they deem "bad"... it's a toss coin, depend of the admin looking it i guess. Vague rule never go in the little way.

So.. yeah, on patreon for me it's not a "if" but a "when" they ll kick us.
Still i stay. Loyalty first, i.. got a emotional connection to the place, it saw me grow as an artist, gave me a platform to evolve.
Stability second, changing mean, loosing a lot of peoples, a lot of incomes.. i m an artist, i don't have much aside. I work alone i can't take 200 project per month. So.. leaving the place could mean loosing a shit tons of money too.
Fear of change, i tend to like it here, will it be better or worse after?
I dunno..

All i know is for last two days i woke up with a ball in my belly, fearing they would ban my safe place for obscure reason they wouldn't even have to give reasons for.
It'll vanish in a few days if i'm still here. Just hope at this point, hope and draw, when i draw there's no fear, just me and the drawing.
I'll draw more tomorow
Have a nice day everyone