Health Update: *sigh* I'm doing great 👍 (Patreon)

Lol remember the last health update when I thought things were rough? Silly naïve little KT didn't know what was coming 😂

Anyway, we don't need to go into it. It's been hashed out enough, I think. Long story short: 2 days after posting the last update my body tried to eliminate itself from existence by tanking my blood sugars. Straight up, was not having a good time 👈😎👈

But the important thing is: my experience and knowledge kicked in and I'm okay now 👍

I gotta say, though, the weirdest thing that's come out of this experience is the realization that...ultimately I don't feel any different than I did before? I feel like whenever you hear about someone having a near-death experience, they come out of it with a new lease on life, right? Or maybe they're a bit of an emotional wreck for a while. But...generally, something has changed. But being chronically unwell, it's kind of just another Tuesday (it was a Sunday, but...idk "just another Tuesday" has a better ring to it 😂)

It was definitely a terrifying experience, and in the moment, I don't know if I'd ever been that scared before. And it truthfully did take a bit of time to process it over the following week. But I think the majority of emotional processing was just coming down from that panic and dealing with the inherent emotional outcomes of the physical health struggles... I ultimately am more frustrated that I don't know why it happened, and exhausted from trying to recover from the lingering physical effects, than I am "changed" by the experience in any way.

And I've had a lot of people sympathize about how stressful and scary it must be, knowing that it could happen again, but like... I've been dealing with scary health stuff my whole life. And this is not particularly stressful or scary to me anymore because now I have that experience and know what to do if it ever happens again 🤷‍♀️

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...I got carried away with this 😅 I was going to rewrite this post and talk more generally about all the health things, but honestly... Heck it. This is what's been most on my mind recently 🙈