Weird flex, but okay... (Patreon)

This may be a weird thing to share on the internet, but here we are 😅

I wanted to share a bit more about one small, more visible part, of my particular brand of being ✨ chronically unwell ✨

As many of you know, because I often mention when it happens on stream, I have a lot of random muscle spasms.

I get muscle spasms pretty often (my muscles really don't like to listen to me in general), but they get worse when the air pressure is bad and Myrna is freaking out. The muscle spasms are actually one of the indicators to me of what the air pressure is doing. They also are part of how I know that while the Botox is helping with my migraines and preventing seizures, I am still having migraines...they're just less painful (which I will gladly take!) 😅

The spasms themselves are more annoying than anything, but they can cause a lot of other issues like: making it difficult to use the muscle(s) that is/are actively twitching, exhausting my muscles making them harder to use later, and sometimes contributing to my overall body pain; if the muscle won't relax, it does eventually become painful. Even if it doesn't last for very long, the repeated contractions often result in muscle fatigue and aches.

This one is in my leg, which has been twitching nonstop for about an hour and a half now as I write this. It's annoying and it feels very weird, but it's overall not particularly debilitating or concerning 🤷‍♀️ At the moment, I can walk, but I can't stand in place with weight on the leg (because the muscle spasms make it unstable and I'm not trying to fall on my face 😂)

But I get these all over. My legs, my arms, shoulders, face, back, abdomen, etc. The most difficult to handle are the ones that happen in my respiratory and abdominal muscles. They can make breathing uncomfortable or even difficult...which is especially problematic as a singer 😅😬

Sometimes massaging or stretching the muscles helps a bit, but mostly I just have to try to relax and wait them out 🤷‍♀️

Anywhoozles, that's all for now! Fingers crossed my leg stops spasming in the next hour so I can enjoy dinner with my university friend 😅🤞