Live KT: Toronto Karaoke pt.2 (Patreon)

By this point in the night, I was extra overwhelmed by emotions. (Mostly scared/awkward, though while I'm actively singing 😂)

Like I said, I've always had very mixed feelings about karaoke. I both love and hate it equally 😅 But to add to that, on this particular night, the woman running the event told me that there's a karaoke competition there on the last Thursday of every month! And there's a cash prize and it's a lot of fun! And I could definitely win! And the last Thursday of the month is next week!

The precise day that I would be packing my apartment into a UHAUL and beginning the 4400km journey across the country. 🤦‍♀️

Ever since I started going to karaoke with my aunt, I've been told by various KJs (karaoke jockeys...I don't know why they call them that, but that's a real thing 😅) that there used to be a lot of karaoke contests, and that I could have won a lot. But that they don't really do them anymore.

And the thing is: I am TERRIFIED of singing in front of people. Especially IRL. And making it a competition with actual judges is even more terrifying.

But I love competition.

I grew up as a gymnast. I was constantly competing. And I loved it. And I have always been competitive. Sometimes that sucks, but it also can come in handy on occasion 💁‍♀️

Except I'd missed all the competition being too scared to go. And then I missed out again because I was moving literally that day 😂🤦‍♀️

So if you recall my story about how I came to be a music streamer, at some point I had decided that if my own fear was the only thing standing in the way of an exciting opportunity or even just a cool experience, then the only person stopping me from doing cool and potentially life changing things was me. And gosh dang it what is the point in stopping myself from that when I have nothing to lose and so much to potentially gain?? (Yes, this was the same logic I used to convince myself to join my dance showcase last year, and it was terrifying and didn't lead to anything, but was a lot of fun and was good for my confidence!)

Sometimes when you stand in your own way for too long, you miss out 🤷‍♀️

Even in this case, when it was my move that caused me to miss the opportunity. Because I had wanted to find somewhere to do karaoke for years after moving to Toronto, and just never actually acted on it.

Sometimes you gotta tell your apprehensions to step aside so you can be cool and have fun 😎 Even if it means you fail. Because that's scary. But what's scarier: trying something and it going nowhere or maybe failing? Or missing out on fun and exciting opportunities because you were too afraid to even try, and spending the rest of your life full of "what ifs" instead of "remember whens"? 🤷‍♀️

And sure, you don't need to do it all the time for everything. But I highly encourage trying it at least once! You never know what might end up changing your life for the better 🥰