Unfinished Song Vault: just a little broken 🫠 (Patreon)

I don't really remember writing this one, but I 100% wrote this to be a cheery sounding little diddy about someone coming over right after I've had a seizure 😂🙈

As sad as that might sound, I think I'm hilarious 💁‍♀️ After I've had a seizure, I always have a really hard time moving afterward; especially moving or lifting my head. So getting up and out of bed is not a particularly...feasible thing for me 😅

But shockingly sometimes I am a butthead and I like to schedule things for times when I know I might seize. Partially because I'm hoping I don't, but also because it does actually feel really nice to get up and even to get outside after a seizure. Sure, it's really difficult and damn near impossible at first, and sure I'll be in pain... but aside from that 😂 Honestly, though, the head cannon there is that I'm going to be in pain anyway, so as long as I'm not in danger of hurting myself more, it's just really nice to get out of bed. 

Most of the time, I feel really awful in one way or another for hours-days before a seizure, which often means I end up bedridden for a day or so before I even seize. But once I have had the seizure, I can be reasonably confident that I won't have another one at least for a few hours (as long as I rest for a bit right after). So that's the time that feels the most reasonable to me to get up and get outside 🙈

Anyway, I wrote this about those days, but from the perspective of not actually being able to get up this time. Which feels extra appropriate to share today because I literally went for a walk with a friend a few hours after having a seizure yesterday 😅🫣

Lyrics:

Oh, hey!

Yeah, come in, the door's open

I'd come over to meet you

But I'm just a little broken

And I'm wondering if I'll ever get up 🫠👍