Unfinished Song Vault: Expectations..? (Patreon)

Honestly, I feel like this one isn't super great, but it's a sentiment I feel pretty frequently, as I'm sure many of you know. 

I think I get in my head a lot about feeling like I'm not doing enough. A lot of this comes up when I get stuck in making comparisons between myself and... myself... and also others who I think are doing better/more than I am. And I feel like "if they can do it, why can't I?" But... there's a lot of reasons why, and part of that is as simple as we're just not the same 🤷‍♀️

I do know, though, that a big reason I get stuck in these kinds of comparison is that I'm unfortunately very used to having high expectations placed on me. SO: This is a piece of a song, weirdly a verse, that's more a reflection of trying to be kinder to myself and understanding of my own energy levels, and like...idk maybe trying to get to a point of advocating for myself and setting boundaries? Maybe? Am I healthy now? Am I fixed?

You'll notice in the lyrics that even I don't know what I'm saying in that one line. It sounds like maybe "I laugh in the middle of the day", but that doesn't make sense to me, so... who knows 🙈

Lyrics:

I brush my teeth on the floor (genuinely)

& you're asking me for more

But I don't have it; I don't have it

And I *[incomprehensible]* in the middle of the day

To say I'm not okay

Is an understatement

'Cause your expectations got me...