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Hey gang, I appreciate all y’all’s feedback and continued support of the show. I realize I have been in a terrible place on the show over the last month or so and I’m kind of imploding. Thank you for treating me with kindness and voicing your concerns or even just understanding that I’m going through something and letting it slide. I apologize if my inconsiderate attitude has real ramifications for you or if I just let you down with my selfishness. I’m just having a really tough year. I’m attempting to get some professional help but you know how impossible that is, but I am trying.


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Stefan Borst-Censullo

Love you Brett and are here for you if you need someone to talk to

dillards dept.

You really don't need to apologize! Really appreciate you !

Jacob Darling

This is big of you man. This shit happens and having your conversations public for people to analyze through a hard time is probably not easy but I’m glad you’re seeking help. Much love!!

Greg

Love you Brett. You are a good soul, we’re here for you

Dillo

You're good bud. Nobody is immune to the ups and downs of life.

Nik Arnoldi

As a long time listener, don’t worry about letting any of us down. More than anything, your vulnerability and openness with sharing where you’re at is a relief knowing that we aren’t the only ones who are going through some struggles. I hope you get some relief from the constant barrage of life on this capitalistic hellscape, and that you find what you need.

John

Definitely not the only one ✌🏼 long live SFR

CR

Public life seems like it would be difficult even in the best of times - respect for keeping at it! Hope you find the help you need

Garden Dan

I have been going through a similar experience dude, and it sucks. I have this very doomer perspective that isn’t me and I feel like I lash out at people that don’t deserve it. We all know it looks hat it’s like going through bullshit and we are all here for you. We all have seen how good of a dude you are and aren’t gonna throw you in the trash for having a rough time! Love you my guy!

Andrea

❤ we love you - hang in there!

Zott23

Totally understood. Take care of you! It’s brutal trying to get into a counsellor nowadays. Wait lists for everyone.

Superdeformed

I went through a lot of the same stuff when I got divorced like 7 years ago. It's like an angry depression sorta? Instead of staying in bed all day I wanted to go out and lash out at people. The sex is amazing though.

Patrick Stall

I had a period in my life years ago where mental health and isolation made me act completely uncharacteristically to most people I knew and the public at large. I was only able to change that behavior bc of the love and support of my community. I hope you're able to find that support. Hang in there comrade!

Mehhrehh

love you brett! keep fighting <3

Brendan Schneider

Thank you for continuing to update us on your struggle. It’s great that you’re working to get help dealing with the darkness, that shit is hard to do. We love you, and are with you.

Patrick Shepherd

Rooting for you man. Being in the wilderness is tough, but you always come out again.

C

appreciate you saying this-i’m sure it was hard to do. sending warm thoughts your way. i’m also a therapist-feel free to DM if you wanna talk or want help getting connected with someone.

LEFD

The world is in a terrible state, moreso with covid. Your frustration is understandable- I think a lot of us can empathize because we're also going through it or know someone who is. It also takes effort and courage to talk about your struggle publicly. We're all rooting for you and want you to gain some peace of mind.

Nixper

All love man. Hope you get to feeling better soon.

Max Karlsson

You truly do not own us anything comrade! Get well! ❤️

David

We love you please make sure you make getting healthy your #1 priority. Time spent cleaning and sharpening your tools is never wasted, and your health is your number 1 tool.

Evan Nordgren

Keep your head up man! Everything you’ve put into the world comes to a lot more than you’ve taken!

Steve D. (BG_Bell)

Nah you're doing ok considering all the shit you've been through this year

R.L. SMALLS

No apology needed, but it is appreciated. Fuck the universe.

Scuttlebutt McNettle

You're one of my favorite people to listen to, because your emotions are genuine. Please take care of you. Being a sensitive person can be hell.

Percle

Keep up the good fight!

Mickey Flykick

I never felt owed an apology as a listener but it speaks volumes to who you are that you want to apologise anyway. I can’t imagine dealing with the kind of personal struggles you’ve been going through on top of the last two years of bullshit

Butteremails

I appreciate the apology, Bryan

Noah Brown

I love you Brett! We here for you!

Patrick Burke

One love man, big of you to even put it out there.

Tim Green

All of the Street Fight community stands with you. We love you and understand. Take care of yourself and come to us with any needs you may have. You are not alone and we are always riding with you. ❤️

Laurel

From listening to the show it sounds like you’ve experienced personal growth at other times in your life, so you’ll see yourself through this too. Hang in there! Don’t give up on professional help. Sometimes in a pinch you can see a supervised PhD psychology student for therapy at a university for basically no money. Your apology is appreciated, and what a difficult thing to do too!

Anders Olsson

We all love you dude. Take care. It feels kind of bad that you've given us so much joy and happiness and we can't really give it back when you need it. Just know that you've done a lot for a lot of people's sanity and well being.

Josh Williams

I feel similarly and don’t think you need to apologize

Jeffrey Sierputowski

I’d much rather hear you going through it, being yourself, than faking it.

auf die Welle

You got a little ornery- things feel/felt overwhelming. Appreciate the apology. I’m addicted to being ornery.

Kait Brady

We love and appreciate all you do, Brett!

Andy

wut? Dogs are overrated, covid scolding is boring outside of serious/earnest nonfiction or whatever, and people expect too much from their DJs/radio hosts, and maybe you of yourself. Keep up the good work

James Browning

You and Bryan are family to us all. Take care of yourself and thanks for being real with us. We're all rooting for you. You add so much to our lives. Times are extra rough Brett. We're all dealing with something especially at work. It's great that you're not in denial about it and are trying to handle it. You've helped me with my own issues in my personal life and at work. I hear a lot of relatable stories and situations. Always reassuring to know I'm not alone. You aren't either. Divorce isn't easy for anyone, but you're doing your best. Sending you love from Portland,OR🖤🖤🖤Lil C.H.U.D. Jr.

kenneth hammond

As someone who also has the habit of lashing out when I am under pressure I really appreciated the honesty. It’s so hard to not beat yourself up when you have a public outlast and it was helpful to me to see someone else react the same way this holiday season. I also appreciate the apology and I think it was totally necessary but I also think you have recorded some things that people genuinely feel right now. Like it’s not ok to be selfish about covid but I think a lot of people have reached a breaking point in terms of just having to live through a long term emergency. I know it’s a shitty platitude but we are all human.

Bill

Hang in there bud

Mique Doggie

Im here to hear to listen to you two tell your story. Sometimes it's rough and im glad it's a reflection of something honest. Hope it turns around soon and you can find some peace.

aufheben

Stay strong king

cn_monoxide

We’re all here for you big man

Laura

It’s gonna get better ❤️‍🩹

Amy

❤️❤️❤️

ROD F

Just adding in that I appreciate what ever you guys put out, it makes me feel better knowing you all exist and have the bravery to do this thing. If you need to step back your fans will be there when you come back

big microbe

Can't speak for anyone else, but I'm not bothered! I assume you guys are playing some exaggerated versions of yourselves as characters on the show. (Bryan's talked more about that, I guess) Honestly, it would be weird if you WEREN'T struggling right now, since things are fucking BLEAK. When I'm having a bad time for a long time, I find myself getting wound up to the point where I'm pretty manic whenever I'm around anyone. God forbid anyone put a microphone in front of me in that state. Last word is that I at least haven't felt bothered, offended, or affronted by anything you've said. Seeing retraction posts like this just makes me concerned for you. I hope you don't spiral with regret or shame over any of this. To me it's just the ups and downs of that Brett Payne feeling

barry

Stay strong dude, dont worry about us!

Shawn

I appreciate your honesty. These are challenging times and we all have those feelings and personal challenges we face in different ways. Keep strong and do what you need to keep yourself going.

Terrance McDonald

Thanks. Because I’m going through the same thing. I’ve been trying to get this medication for almost 9 months and my insurance has been jerking me around. It’s making me insane. But thanks for admitting that. It’s hard to keep that outer shell up and shiny all the time.

123naptime

We love you Brett! I’ve definitely been a little worried about you, but not upset at you at all! hang in there, I hope you can get some help because you deserve that kind of support.

Ben Love

No worries Brett, it was pretty obvious it was something like that. Been listening for years at this point, a few months of you not being in the best place doesn’t invalidate the many years of you being a cool guy. Hope you can find the help you need and don’t have to keep struggling so much

M

we really do love you guys. and, having had my own things and struggling w/ finding help, I know that—for me—despite having gotten help before and made it through awful times, this most recent time (over the past couple years) still felt (surprisingly) like it was totally impossible I’d ever get to the other side of it, or that I’d survive it. so, wishing you luck—and a lot of suspension of disbelief, and the strength you clearly have, as you make it through—from the other side. Love you, Brett. Try not to whip your own ass too much. ❤️

max longtin

Love everything you put out and think this post shows a ton of strength. Appreciate you and all you do ❤️

Taggart Wass

Hang in there homie. Been worried about you but sounds like you’re looking for some help. If you ever wanted to have the some accountability going through psychology today and calling a bunch of therapists just dm me here. ❤️

Jacob

Nah man, everyone goes through it some times.

Jerimiah

You don't owe me anything. An ungodly amount of American men refuse to apologize under any circumstance. You're even trying to improve.

Lydia Maria Child

Keeping it real. No apologies necessary. Been listening for years now and you're generally spot-on about most things. You guys are great because you are a very unique perspective that doesn't really exist anywhere else. Your radical honesty is great and frankly refreshing. So it also makes sense that when life gets a little thorny, that also will be reflected in the podcast...AS IT SHOULD! Anybody "offended" by anything you said in the past few months isn't worth listening to. And probably also projecting their own issues onto you. It's going to be a long and rough winter. For everyone. And you guys are a bright spot in this dull midwest landscape/culture, so keep on shining! Edit: please feel free to reach out any time. I'm in Bloomington, IN. Why on Earth have you guys never been here! I've got a free place to stay for the next few weeks or month, if you need a place to chill. (vacant, but clean and warm)

Lydia Maria Child

Another thing: consider doing some volunteer work, if you don't already. One of the best ways to get back up on your feet is by helping others do so. Kinda counter-intuitive, but it often works. Help yourself by helping others. Community kitchens or whatever you got there. You probably know this, but just wanted to mention it.

Anders Olsson

I want to second this. Try not to feel bad about stuff you've said. Everyone here understands and nobody's angry or hurt. If anything you've made some poeple uneasy because we love you guys and want you to be happy. Try to deal with your own feels without worrying about ours.

Voynich

Thank you for your apology Bryan, I hope this is the last we hear about your long walks.

the fact that you are real enough to accept your humanity and work through your struggles the best you can in a way that sets a good example for others reaffirms my belief that this podcast is uniquely important.

Nicolas Lemieux

Hang on Bret! You have friends on here and in your irl!

Ryan

Most people have been losing their minds lately. You are doing better than most under the circumstances. Don't beat yourself up to much. You don't have to be "ON" 24/7. You prove continually your generosity and caring heart, so having varying degrees of emotions just shows your human. I love ya!

Cameron Slick

Did I miss something? I think Bret did nothing wrong.

streetfightradio

thanks brother, I still think about you saying, "Just get the rest of the tattoo filled in later, it's not like you aren't coming back to LA." in 2019 lol.

streetfightradio

Yes absolutely, I have definitely been a much more joyful person to be around and feeling like this is not fun at all.

streetfightradio

This means a lot to me, and it makes me well up when I read it, because the cruelty of humanity makes waking up a very hard thing for me to do.

streetfightradio

Thanks a million to everyone who replied, I tried to respond to as many as I could. I did talk to my dermatologist the other day and he told me he wanted to prescribe a pill for my psoriasis. I asked the side effects and he said "depression". I told him I didn't want to take it then and he offered to put in a mental health referral for me, which was exactly what I needed. I did not want to make an appointment with my regular doctor just to get that referral.